Void (voidm0nster@bluesky)

all my art is on bsky, this account is only for being sad.

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

i have two moods. suicidally depressed and horny

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

cannot stop thinkin about suckin dick lmao

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

sometimes i debate if being dead is better than trying to live, because if i can't even have solidarity with other trans people then who the fuck am i supposed to lean on for community?

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

the stupid cruelty is insane. truly fucking insane. there is no 'trans community', there is no 'queer community'. y'all are fucking mean and nasty and terrible to each other. but it's fine as long as you're mean to men of course, they always deserveeee it for being men

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

genuinely been so fuckin depressed lately because people are so fucking cruel to my trans and queer and gay brothers. being a man does not make you ontologically evil. being a man does not make you systemically always in a position of power. generally so fucking wretched

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

i feel like my friends are tired of hearing how lonely i am. i hope i can move next year because i have zero chance of meeting anyone where i live and now that i no longer do fandom i've had harder and harder time making friends.

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

i think something i miss tremendously is like. the soft and domestic kind of love and care. i've been single for years now. i miss waking up and having someone. it feels like now that i've transitioned and look more masculine i've become untouchable

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

im so mad i can't find this specific gif of two men making out and dry humping while fully clothed. it was on my dash and then vanished...........

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

@BriarLupine uggghhhh these rule!!! gotta check my finances cuz..... hmmmm big blaze kinda callin my name.... i need more feral ocs....

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

@BriarLupine yeah!! they're really nice, and hard to Get Right

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

@BriarLupine he's so handsome!!

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

just wanna toss pills at it and call it a day but that's not going to work anymore

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

so depressed it's physically painful lol

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

like yep! i am so depressed because of my situation that there is NOTHING medication can do for me. it cannot make it better. between the politics in this country and where i live..... there is Nothing. nothing. nothing. nothing. no one can fucking help me and no one wants to

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

Human no longer live close enough for me to see them. I have No One Left. No one. What the fuck do I do with that

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

Why do I have to be alone why do I have to be alone why everyone tells me that I’m funny and enjoyable to be around and I’m not stupid and worthless but no one will ever go out of their way to be around me. No one else makes an effort and the few people that made me feel

[Void (voidm0nster@bluesky) @VOIDM0NSTER]

I feel abandoned by everyone. People may love and care about me but they’ve still abandoned me, they’ve all left me alone. No one will ever make the effort to return what I try to give them. I’m never going to be loved in the ways I love others. I want it to stop being painful