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When you are mentally disturbed, you don't always act kind, you get irritated easily. Your patience started to fade. You speak rudely sometimes, not because you want to, but because your heart is tired of holding too much. You push people away, and they call it bad behaviour. they see anger, but only you know the truth. It's not anger, it's mental exhaustion. a mind crowded with unsaid words slowly turning into sadness. Emotions become too heavy to carry, too painful to explain, and all you're doing is trying to survive the noise inside.