@HopeAlwaysMeows It's alright Vanessa
This message is meant for my family
If they even think we are
Even after they've long abandoned me
They're all that I could have asked for in life
The only thing I ever dreamed about
It will never reach them here or in real life
But I can't get over it yet
Today I hate myself so much
I've been waiting my whole life for people who'll never come back no matter what
For being faithful
For being a child
For being human
For being weak and ugly
I made the mistake
I'm sorry
For existing
And for never being enough for any of you