๐ถ I told Shinyoung unnie back then when things were so hard and this might be really heartbreaking for MooMoo to hear now. It's not that i actually wanted to do it, but i said things like, ''I really just want to quit. It's too exhausting" Do you know that feeling where you love something so much that 'I don't want to do this anymore' comes out of your mouth? I really loved this job and wanted to do it for a long, long time, but because i was so worn out, i kept saying things like that.
๐ถ But Shinyoung unnie told me "Of course i understand how hard it is for you. But even if you feel like quitting right now & don't want to do this, the day when you miss these times will definitely come". At the time, i didn't want to accept that, nor could i understand it. I wasn't in a position where I could grasp it, so whenever she said that, half-joking and half-serious, I'd go, ''Nah, i don't think i will'' And she'd say "No, you will definitely miss it"
๐ถ Lately, I've been realizing how true those words were. ๐คฃ anyone hearing this would think MAMAMOO is going to disband. I had completely forgotten about what she said for years without even realizing it. Looking back at myself over the past few years, I think Iโve been living with those feelings just as Shinyoung unnie said. Iโm feeling it a lot while releasing this album, doing concerts, and promoting together.
Wheein said she missed the good old days and watched old MMM videos when she drinks alone. Everyone said they are crying so Wheein started to cry ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
๐ถ You know that period when MMM were truly at our peak? There are many times i want to go back to that time. Honestly there were times when I absolutely hated it, too. Because it was just so exhausting. People need rest. I can truly feel how precious those moments are, but when things keep crashing over you endlessly, you end up giving up? I feel like I'm rambling right now.
๐ถ There were so many times when I went through things without even realizing what was slipping away. I had no breathing room, and it was tough. But looking back now, even though it was really hard, it was also so much fun. I miss those days. If i went back now, I wonder if i could ever push myself like that again. Why are you crying?
๐ถ Whenever i drink alone, the thing I do most is put on old MAMAMOO videos and watch them. itโs kind of my habit when i drink. I watch them and then I cry by myself. I think I'm actually about to tear up now
๐ถ seriously, Byul unnie is so kind. sheโd do it while cringing and going "ahh~" in disgust. iโm going to continue with the project to make the reliable braces unnie a queen. got it everyone?
๐ถ while iโm in the U.S iโm gonna try to make reliable braces unnie become a hot girl โ๐ป