I think im being delusional but I think my mom purposely cut herself. I hope she did. I can use the excuse of her being hypocritical. I doubt it. Im the worst fucking person ever.
I need more trans Inclusive places around my area bc wtf is that I can only buy binders and trans tape online?? This is so fucked I have to suffocate to feel okay. Not like I mind but shit bro.
Im a real fatass ik that for sure..
Ive really had one real meal today but thats no excuse because energy drinks and such. I got to focus on it more tbh.
I really hate my body.
School is starting soon.
Im going to cut myself and worry them all.
Im tired of my bullshit too mom. Just dont send me back to the hospital.
Being clean is so restricting, I cant do it.
Why does it feel so normal without my siblings? I barely talk to my little sister and my brother ran away this morning. What the fuck am I doing? Am i supposed to be worrying? Its almost 24 hrs since he has been gone. I feel normal and want to do fun shit but this is going on.
Fucking shit bro next week is my last week with my therapy agency. I genuinely loved that agency I just didnt pay mind to the shit. Only if I can redo. Im transferring agencies.
I have piercings. Spider bites and a nose ring.
Wish I got a new jewlery for my nose piercing.
It'd also be cool if I got shark bites instead.
Not like Im ungrateful tho.