i want my girlfriend. i want her so bad. i want the gaze. i want to scratch her back. i want to interlock fingers. i want to press our foreheads together. i want to dance in her room. i want to hold her on my chest. i want to kiss her. and tickle her. i want to be with her always
i talk too much and everyone always lets me know. it makes me feel small and sad because i know im obnoxious. maybe i should just stay mute. maybe its time i quit voicing everything.
i hope my gf doesnt take anything i ever vent about personally. she treats me so good i just dont have any other way to get out half of the things that eat me alive.
im trying so hard to be good and take care of myself and let people into my life but it just feels like the door is wide open and everyone is peaking in, never staying. just coming and going or visiting. i swear im structured. i swear i can hold meaningful relationships.