now he's researching or even trying to stop himself to reach into "wonderland". a code name for his detached reality state, perhaps?
⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀thank heavens even with his odd and weird behavior, he never really gives up.
the numbness he would feel right now are part of the symptoms of the said drug that was injected to him.
⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀splashing hot water in his face or even dipping his own hand in the fryer would most likely be his solution but it really doesn't work.