i want to listen to bangchan, i really do. but i really want to disappear from this world. i don't want to be with my dad anymore, i hate him. i want to run away, but i can't. it's impossible. i can't call anyone either.
it's better if i just leave this earth.
what? where are all of you guys coming from? why is this getting attention? how did people find this? i'm so confused. this must be fake, right? this isn't real. i must be hallucinating. haha. i'm stupid. this isn't real. this isn't real. this isn't real. this isn't real.
bye bye to whoever is reading this. i'm doing this because i have no purpose in life. i'm useless. no one adored me in this world, except for my brother. he was the only one who was actually there by my side. that's why i'm going with him.
i'm gonna go and try to hanging on. hanging on seems nice, right? my life is so fucking miserable. why do i have to live like this? God? why? why did you make me live here?
miss na kita kuya :)
if your reading this, im sorry. i just wanted to tell you my life story before i leave this awful, sinful world. my name is Anika. I live in the Philippines, and I am 17. My name is Anika.
i hate this. i hate people. i hate everyone. this is why i have trust issues. i fucking hate life. woojin made my mood go down, fuck you for that woojin.
woojin was the one who caught my attention the most and he was the person i admired alot. but that has changed after what he did. i would never forgive him. he is disgusting. what he did was disgusting.
i was lost, i've lost hope in this world. but now, i'm 17. ever since i met skz 2 years ago. i suddenly felt happy again. i wasn't really new to kpop, and skz was the first group i ever stanned.
my dad would always be so demanding. he would force us to do things that we didn't want to do. my brother died from leukemia at the age of 10. my dad didn't even bother to give him a proper funeral.
i wouldnt say i have depression but ever since i was 12, i felt like i was lost, no one was there with me. my mom left me, my brother, and my dad when i was around 4. my brother was diagnosed with leukemia and my dad doesn't really care about us.
the reason why im typing this is because i wanted to speak out the things i wanted to say. im hurt woojin, so damn hurt. you betrayed me and betrayed everyone who supported you.
you made me cry woojin. you were my bias when you were still in stray kids. when i heard that you left the group, i was devastated! i trusted you with all my heart woojin. i supported you!