lotus ❀ .ᐟ.ᐟ

𐔌˚ ౨౿ 23｜ed diary ꒰ pro recovery ꒱
167cm｜cw: 49.5kg (17.7)｜lw: 40.8kg (14.6)

[lotus ❀ .ᐟ.ᐟ @0600malade]

𓍯ོ ͜✿ #edrtwt looking for moots .ᐟ

　lotus
　23 (‘02) & any prns
　eng gàidhlig 日本語
　an-r relapse ૮ ◞ ⸝⸝ ◟ ྀིა
　not new ! was active during 2022-24

♡／↻ to be mutuals .ᐟ (18+)

[lotus ❀ .ᐟ.ᐟ @0600malade]

i gen cannot wrap my head around how most people aren’t passively suicidal, this shit has made me suffer for so long i have passed up on n sabotaged so many opportunities n relationships bc i don’t see myself being here much longer to feel i should take those away from others

[saanjh 🔮 @dontcrysaanjh]

"edtwt is so scary"

the average edtwt post:

[lili @skinily]

this is literally EXACTLY what it was like to reach my ugw and there was nothing more upsetting

[ʚ cate ɞ @bisoucat]

btw to this day this is the most triggering video for me ever

[telly @nutatelly]

does anyone else get irritated when family members insist ur skinny when ur not in ur gw yet lmao😭

[rin of edrtwt (◝∙◜) @kagaminethin]

food is so expensive and literally lasts like two seconds. when i move out i’m buying anime figures and pretty clothes instead of groceries

[swirlixcals @swirlixcals]

one ed symptom i don't talk about ever, out of sheer embarrassment, is bladder incontinence.

but i thought id finally open up about it because i just had a really horrible moment when i was out on my walk just now. eds aren't glamorous.

my bladder is so weak, i straight up -

[°❀.ೃ࿔* @wurooods]

I'm so glad I lived long enough to find out Pinkberry is a thing

[lotus ❀ .ᐟ.ᐟ @0600malade]

the safest of all safe foods i’m gonna miss these so bad when i move back home

[lotus ❀ .ᐟ.ᐟ @0600malade]

crazy that as long as i don’t snack or eat out or eat my dorm’s canteen meals then i can EASILY eat under 1000kcal with 3 meals a day omfg

[lotus ❀ .ᐟ.ᐟ @0600malade]

my very simple lazy day wieiad ૮꒰ ˶´ `˶꒱ა
(featuring the cardboard box that has all my shit that i’m sending home because i move country next month LOL)

[𝙢𝙤𝙘𝙝𝙞 もち @moti_moti_6186]

最近原料の勉強しているのですが、やっぱり砂糖の違いって面白いな〜と
三温糖、グラニュー糖でも検証したい

←粉糖　　　　　　　→きび砂糖

[lotus ❀ .ᐟ.ᐟ @0600malade]

went out grocery shopping came back incredibly fascinated and persuaded by famima’s new Afternoon Tea range

[lotus ❀ .ᐟ.ᐟ @0600malade]

staying indoors today because i have LOADSS of studying for unit tests next week n homework n dissertation work to do. BUT that means i am simultaneously cooking up the nicest wieiad pictures today of the kind of food i make at home :3

[lotus ❀ .ᐟ.ᐟ @0600malade]

dare i say .. the sweetness n texture of these frozen berries is so similar to ice cream … i can’t believe i haven’t been buying frozen berries up until now omfg do yous see the size of this bag

[lotus ❀ .ᐟ.ᐟ @0600malade]

tbh as much as i personally am embarrassed of my weight, i would just tell them anyway because loads of people irl don’t have a good grasp of what an appropriate weight for someone is just by looking at them, ANY number i say could give all sorts of reactions _:(´ཀ`」 ∠):

[Elder @elderisback]

putting your ed brain to the side, if irls asked your weight, would you be embarrassed to say it?

[lotus ❀ .ᐟ.ᐟ @0600malade]

i should’ve never recovered i should’ve hid my disordered behaviours better from everyone so that i could get worse and worse i’m sick of mourning my old body day after day after day and letting myself get to my current disgusting state

[Carme @carmebones]

anorexic lesbian popsicles