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my crappy disordered diary☆彡relapsing era。・°°・♡・°°・ 。cbmi 17.1,., cw 45.9kg,.,

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

@puppifiedcorpse no real! i’m a 25yr old working a full time job with bills and responsibilities. i can’t afford to be eating under 600cal daily and putting myself at risk for hospitalisation🥲 like i’ve got rent to pay😭😭

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

@mayssdiaryy hi lovely<3 i am currently in my worst binge restrict era rn. literally haven’t been able to keep up on my usual deficit for nearly 3 months and my binges r crazy. literally 9k+ every time i binge too. pretty sure counting every binge, it’s been 3+ straight weeks. ur not alone<3

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

100% i’m not even uw anymore.. this is so embarrassing

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

i feel so alone. been off and on binging for the last month, i just know ive gained weight. i don’t even have anyone to talk to about this. the amount of shame and guilt ive been feeling is immense, i cant even leave my house without contemplating ending myself.

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

gotta lock in next month lmao

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

actually might be in my binge restrict era😀

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

lowkey wanna binge

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

@S0ulGhoul i had a 10k+ binge actually not too long ago. literally just ate a fuck load of nuts, chocolate and fast food. it’s lowkey easier than most people think with how calorie dense some food is://

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

do u think if i went into my non living era it would cancel out the calories 😂😂

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

okay i fucked up so bad this week.. literally binged twice😐 i’m actually so mad

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

okay i fucked up so bad this week.. literally binged twice😐 i’m actually so mad

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

cute lil bc:3

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

okay i WILL be fat next week 😏

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

lost more weight after chudmaxxing last week😔🙏🏼

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

mum finally gave me the “too skinny” talk😭😍

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

quite literally ate over 15k cals yesterday… and kinda planning on doing it again today💀 what the fuck is wrong with me lol

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

honestly love eating like a pig while being skinny,, ppl also ask how i stay in “shape”😂

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

finally lost weight again this morning😍 actually been such a fat chud these last couple of weeks i’m genuinely surprised lol

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

@eltheblackbear u’ll be right. quite literally binged for 2 days straight, like 15k cals, and somehow still lost weight the week after💀 doing a maintenance day won’t ruin anything <3

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

living as an uw adult is actually unbearable. like how am i meant to prioritise my ed but have a full time job and pay my bills on time😭

[rose:3 @0atmealgrl]

@mattysnowpuff i did around 20k across 2 days😍😍