gigi 🫀

tw ed. I could fix me and I will | bmi: 27.9

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

they tried to get me to a psychiatrist but it was a guy and I simply don't trust men w my mental health sorry anything else you're good I just don't trust my brain to just anybody
so I'm keeping my appt in 2 weeks w the lady I had already confirmed.

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

I came to redeem myself abt the health insurance. I didn't know you could get an immediate online appt with any doctor.
I'm shocked I logged out of curiosity and I'll see a cardiologist in 10mins that's crazy I love paying 5% of my salary to them actually

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

it breaks my heart cause mom's life here is great and I really don't want to be the reason she goes back to that fucking town but my GOD all of you need a reality check! mom included! "I'll just live with your brother" he'll k himself in 6 months diva. I'm the bravest sibling

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

officially cannot leave this job as my sister has crazy bills and my brother is paying them off his pocket and off MY pocket
I would have NO problem paying. I make enough money for both of us! but you <need> to be "self sufficient" and only ask when you're in trouble

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

my job is great and pays well and I was already postponing getting a masters cause I'll probably have to quit but now my sister's best friend passed and I just can't let her live alone in that town anymore.
I need this job to pay for her college and keep her w me

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

that's it you either come live with me in the next 3 months or I'll start applying for masters overseas. I'll flee the fucking country and y'all will be on your own!!!!!
all this cause I'm the youngest and it's embarrassing to depend on me until I'm all you have left wtf

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

my siblings just stressed me the FUCK out barely 10 minutes after I tweeted this, I cannot believe it.

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

still stressed, still having heart palpitations and my appointment is in 2 weeks so I <need> to figure out a way to calm down until then

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

still stressed, still having heart palpitations and my appointment is in 2 weeks so I <need> to figure out a way to calm down until then

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

my gym is closed for the next 2 weeks so now I either workout at home or go to another place I feel SO lazy already

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

and I can't tell any of my siblings about it cause they can't keep their mouths shut! if one of them hears about it it's gonna be 5 people in my dms

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

imagine having a heart attack at 26 because of a mild inconvenience at work absolute loser behavior

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

I'll get to the psychiatrist and she'll say "have you checked with a cardiologist" and I'll get to the cardiologist he'll say "do you have any blood tests so we can check" so I'm trying to get ahead of it

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

after a month of daily palpitations I got an appointment to get my heart checked (!!) next month
I don't know that I'll survive that far so I'm trying to get blood tests in advance

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

all this grind and stress over deadlines to not even like the final result why do I even try?? I'm obviously not confident enough to make art I need to shut the f up and stay on academia.

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

I've been working on this thing for like 2 months and it was a big source of anxiety and I haven't slept longer than 3 hours this week to finish it and now it's done
I don't know if I'll know how to exist without it tomorrow
also now that it's done I hate it and it sucks

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

I feel like a mess why can't I get my shit together???? wtf

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

I think I missed another great opportunity due to being unfocused. I was SO close

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

my palms are sweaty

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

goddd I'm so anxious I need to get the heart palpitation thing checked immediately I don't want to die because of work

[gigi 🫀 @0calglittergoth]

you have no idea how tired I am it's like period cramps take away all my strenght