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Well, back to my aggressive motivation for my goals. You may not think it's possible but you'll regret this one day. Anything for my son.

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I don't know what to say.

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Hey rain do you mind leaving, you're fucking up my perm.

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Been up for only an hour. My mind resembles the weather today. Day by day I slowly get to my goal.

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Sitting in the car writing notes.. Rain pouring. I use to love that sound. I figured by now I would be use to being alone most of the day.

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Randomly driving around. I need to find a hobby or some friends. Life is definitely weird right now.

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That's understandable.Even being told that, I'm having a decent day. Maybe over time with by improving my situation we'll be able to hangout

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Time to get my life together.. It's my only chance.. Call me a fool but I still have hope. I've let my mind treat the two I love horrible.

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Randomly woke up. I have to get on the ball even if my mind can't. If I mean what I say.. I would stop the bullshit and try. I miss them

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day 66: woke up feeling like my world ended. I could just a text or a call. I don't now if I can't handle this.

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Because to be honest it was just going to get worse. But instead of just telling her that. I said things I didn't mean to make surewednttalk

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Well, that's that... Might be for the best.. She's better off without me in her life.

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More people I know are getting married and having kids. Man, I must say I'm jealous.

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where's my version of Tyler Durden when I need him?

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I dunno but I have a weird feeling about something.. I hope I'm not right.

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My son is half asleep then quietly whispers in my ear "if I had one wish it would be... To be with you everyday." I know the feeling.iloveu

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I am jacks lack of optimism.

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Vicente Fernandez perfect music for heartbreak.

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At times I've lost control of my mind and I said things I would have never said. It caused me to lose any chance I had. I destroyed it all.

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Day 62: even though I continue to better my life be it health, schooling etc. it doesn't help me feel better. Life feels unreal.. Ihatelife