souldealer

Whats, Whos and Wheres do not matter but the Is and the Am does.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

like the moving shadows that haunt the corners of your vision, they cannot be ignored.

when you wake up alone at midnight and hear an unfamiliar voice call your name, it cannot go unacknowledged.

express no fault, no blame, take it on the chin like a man, we must move on.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

daily wisdoms.
1# do not expect anything good from people

2# time spent idle now will be idleness that torments you later, get up!

3# for outcomes you want, wait not for a savior, do not lay about for divine intervention, seize the moment by the clasping of your hands!

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

Before I go too sleep on this frigid beatup mattress in my dirty pod, I put this person in the list of people I wish the best of, that if god has a blessing waiting for me too consider giving them it first.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

There is someone I knew, who by being in the mere abstract presence of gave me the drive to get into the best shape of my life, to go into job interviews and do things I've never felt capable, I felt afraid and pushed them away like I did too all others who made me feel choked.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

Everyone I know succumbs to some sort of relaxant too an extent I can never seem to enjoy, people who smoke packs a day, alcoholics, stoners and addicts, I've done nearly everything and unable to stick too it, in life I am only defined by my shapelessness, my inconsistency.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

I am filled with a deep seated insecurity and a sadness that permeates every fiber of my being, I only do things to survive and too fulfill some given purpose mostly too the former, I push everyone I hold love for away from so that when I die it shall be like an unheard whistle.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

In the heat of the fight with blood running from my nose I had the enemy pinned too the wall, in the first outcome I die, in the second I'm in prison but in this world of black and white I chose the third way, the color of life and I am alive with a second chance given to me.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

its okay, everything has to come too an end, even the light.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

congrats dude, you pass a 24 year old transfem she and her thats also a cute furry wolfkin, can't wait to fall asleep in ten minutes and see you in my nightmares

[Shreds the wolf @edgyfox99]

Do I pass as female?

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

the clear divine intervention to fuck with me is just funny at this point and i don't even bother too read the cashout because its never fucking available due to being so big and because i'm typically too busy for what ultimately amounts too a dud bet.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

I've made hundreds of insane, fucking wack seeming 20 fold bets over the last couple months that have nearly passed with outcomes of hundreds to even tens of thousands with only a single dollar and they miss ALWAYS by 1 to 4 events at the most.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

thank god for being 6 ft 3 with a head full of hair, can't see were the fuck i'm going with all this thick curly shit in my face and i absolutely bumping my god damn head on something i can't even see coming.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

i'm stuck in a fucked up bipolar dance of moving on from you and fighting the urge with all my being to going back to you, this urge is a battle i always win but everytime i do so it chips away a little bit more at my soul, i had to drive you off and i wish i could say sorry.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

sometimes i get so numb and apathetic that i just have to see some gore, not out of some sick pleasure or curiosity but too run that jolt up my spine that fills me with the fear i need to live life to its fullest, so i never ever take anything for granted again like i did you.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

money situation is either so completely fucked or blessed, one moment I can have so much and be having the time of my life and the next it vanishes and i get my card declined for a can of tuna, without you and on my own I can only stay in the light and it makes me so damn blind.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

Sometimes my memory becomes so strong i'm physically there in memories real or dreamed, I've been in hell, I've been in heaven and all in between this surreal dreamscape, everything twists and turns and changes, all that stays is the hate in my heart and the confusion in my eyes.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

I'm just all over the place, I don't know what I want, I don't know who I am, I don't know man, I don't even know were I am sometimes, only thing I know is what I'm made of.

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

@KintirLicker over 150 likes... niggas really be liking everything they see

[souldealer @111ABRASAX111]

i love my wife, even if shes divorced me, even if i never met her, even if its just me talking too myself with an alt, even if its just a tulpa i've created with my imagination, even if im just a tulpa that i've projected over true real self. love is real and it is in the air....