lauren🌛

24 • she/her • bad at this!

[lauren🌛 @115please]

me with my coffee every morning trying to plan out my intake so i don’t go over 1100 cals but get as much protein and micronutrients as possible and can spread out my eating over a full day to stay somewhat energized and prevent binge urges but also without eating out ideally and

[lauren🌛 @115please]

when i miss my ex i think about how i’d have panic attacks bc he’d cook everything in a fucking gallon of olive oil “for the flavor” even though it just made everything soggy and gross. hard to miss that

[lauren🌛 @115please]

@aligetsbetter for the longest time I’ve thought that I was bi because I dated men for years but now I look back and ?? I was definitely attached to them and I enjoyed their company/feeling wanted & desired but ?? was it really legit attraction ?? ehhh

[lauren🌛 @115please]

i wish i had more adderall so i could abuse it but instead i just take it every morning as prescribed and i just really feel like it’s not living up to its potential

[lauren🌛 @115please]

i’m addicted to tiktok but i also find it SO insufferable sometimes, i wish i could block everyone under 18 bc none of them have any sense or ability to critically think

[lauren🌛 @115please]

happy October to all who celebrate

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fuck i think they’re on to something

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you know the vibe. cheers !

[lauren🌛 @115please]

OK so i haven’t used Twitter in year and half but in that time i did date my guy best friend and it was many months of gaslighting, lies, manipulation, emotional abuse and then many more months of torture and mixed signals bc i was too weak to walk away

[lauren🌛 @115please]

this is my best friend who is a guy and i am the emotional support friend and i am TIRED Jesus Christ

[lauren🌛 @115please]

and now…. after a very long depressive episode in which I barely went outside or did anything, the fog has lifted a little… so naturally I have been restricting again to regain the sense of control I’ve been sorely lacking

[lauren🌛 @115please]

well well well i forgot this existed. classic

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@skinnibitchhh i’m white and my brother and I were able to stand on the front line in order to protect BIPOC behind us. it wasn’t a moment for us to speak out, and it definitely shouldn’t be giving white people a platform- it was time for us to listen. but making a physical barrier does help.

[lauren🌛 @115please]

@prettyandtired all it takes is some honesty and communication which u and your fiancé totally seem to have!! the idea of ending a relationship over a tiny difference or argument is pretty immature imo- have they never heard of conflict resolution 🤔

[lauren🌛 @115please]

@prettyandtired a lot of ppl on here are really young and haven’t been in a committed long term relationship, so i would just take their advice w a grain of salt lmao- disagreements are so normal, and if a relationship is healthy and fulfilling its worth fighting for!!

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@softbootyheaux ahh i was like👁👃🏻👁 i’ve been there before... well im glad u enjoyed ur visit!

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@nataliluvscats dude I feel, I will go entire days without opening my laptop it’s actually disgusting ! but this semester is hard on everyone and we got this, it’s just time to grind it out😳

[lauren🌛 @115please]

i am the CEO of working out instead of getting my actual work done and i truly can’t do that this week bc i have like 4 papers to write and that matters more than being skinny..... it already pains me 💔

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@coffeencalories I hope you’re able to take pride in what you’ve overcome and let go of other people’s standards... it’s hard when everyone you know has hit this milestone but as long as you’re making any type of forward motion, you’re doing great! and you’ll get there eventually too 🥳

[lauren🌛 @115please]

who do i think i am taking 3 hours to exercise when i haven’t written any of my final papers yet i rlly don’t deserve rights and it stops now !

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@coffeencalories so why should I compare myself to people with easier circumstances? you’re making the best of your life and your situation and you should be proud of yourself!! its not a race or a competition, and success looks different for everyone. hang in there :)

[lauren🌛 @115please]

@coffeencalories im first gen and had to take a year off for $$ reasons but am now back and working towards my degree again- and the guilt and shame can be so much, even when I’m doing my best it feels like I’m failing and not doing enough. but at the end of the day, I’m the only one in my shoes