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16 unorganised digital diary

[Big Tee @societyhatestee]

what doesn't kill you makes you quieter.

[0 _ # @dowutuwantshawt]

everyone’s sending me mixed signals and it’s hurting my head

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

that one quote where they wanted to be seen not looked at
i want to at least be looked at

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

I wanna i wanna iwanna i wanna iwanna be adored.. iwanna iwanna i wanna iwannaa iwaannaaa i GOTTA be adored

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

loosing an aspect of functions within a “normal” person is harmful, at least to me, since connections is everything if you (i) want to get anywhere in this society
if i cant do anything without thinking about how, where and when to do it and especially how people will respond ..

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

Since when did i start to loose my knowledge on how to interact with others appropriately and properly? I wonder, interacting with people in a supposedly natural manner is so unnatural. I cant speak or else

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

chiang kai shek mention tho 👀👀

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

hoky fuck discord call with my school friend and her friends is not fun
spoke zero words and it was so fucking nerve wracking

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

i am absolutely sure that he has just finished the brothers karamazov and his favourite character is alyosha

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

@notsorecovered ouu the scarf is so cute !! ( ^ω^ )

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

im thinking, talking and obsessing over him while he has a whole girlfriend ..sorry that i havent mentioned that detail yet, lol!
but why does that matter, i only want to be his friend

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

@imizuyuutoo omg that looks amazing 🥹🥹

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

@ghxstktty the sun in our hearts is mao zedong

[aeris @ivorylinesleadd]

i want someone to be nosy about me

[h. @goofhaida]

wrote a 500 words essay about a fucking hug in my journal lmao

[Sho @Burgeryearner]

When the sun smiles upon the trees

[✥ @qamrlight]

—Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

essentially, something is better than nothing

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

but i feel embarrassed to be interested in this kind of stuff and not know as much as i should compared my peers in age interested in similar topics
like i am falling behind, as usual!
fuck i cant even have a “hobby” without feeling like something is wrong!

[⋆˙⟡ @16o9_1O]

ill be fine, to be interested, then curious, and finally to engage with the material at any point in time is better than not ever having any interaction in the first place.