anju

they say cats can feel their own time..
in their weakest state, they stay away from home to not bring danger..

you are my home.. a place i cant return to...

[anju @173anchan]

calendar still on July.....

just happened to see it again..

[anju @173anchan]

idk. maybe its a curse.. something i would do from now on..

my world stopped right there.. and it never spin again..

[anju @173anchan]

im tired. i want to get some sleep.. my body really at its limit...

but im still scared..

i never recovered from it.. and im still scared to even close my eyes.. and even if i did manage to fall asleep.. i always woke up after 30mins-1hr even without an alarm..

[anju @173anchan]

sigh....

[anju @173anchan]

i wanna say im happy for them
but i cant..

im just too selfish.. sorry..
i just want to be happy to.. why is that my wish is always the one that doesnt get fulfilled?

life so unfair..
i wish i was them..
i wish i had their life..
the one with you...

[anju @173anchan]

they are there, arent they?
everything goes silent whenever, so i thought that's the casw again today...

[anju @173anchan]

i hate to recognized the patterns of things i dont want to accept.. but its the reality.. there's nothing i can do about it....
i will just be hurt again even for just thinking about it..

wish i had that life....
wish i was them....

[anju @173anchan]

wish i wont wake up..

not just not waking up, like uninterrupted sleep..
but.. not waking up, as totally not having a chance to wake up again..

im tired. please let me rest.
im still a coward to so it myself.
so please life.. i had enough of these heartbreaks..
let me rest..

[anju @173anchan]

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[anju @173anchan]

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[anju @173anchan]

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[anju @173anchan]

"dont try to solve your life. just the next hour"

it hits hard.
coz thats what i've been doing all this time. it was so difficult.. i couldnt even see myself in the next day.. its so heavy.

"find one reason"
i tried. i still keep trying.. but none left.

https://t.co/1qH5TRVb4h

[anju @173anchan]

i never learned any lesson, aint i?
maybe i was never meant to be happy..
maybe that wad the life i need to live with..

[anju @173anchan]

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[anju @173anchan]

i had loved 3 women in my life, but never got the chance to get into relationship with them, especially the last one..
(just almost with my first. almost.)

but i could say i feel the same innocent love for her just like my first love.. and both unrequited like the second one.

[anju @173anchan]

kinda insensitive..
im already hurting..

[anju @173anchan]

those are the words of someone who never got taken for granted.. someone who always got chosen.....

but glad they can say it... because it sucks to be always the one on the losing end.. you drained yourself dry for everyone.. without single one looking back at you..

[中島由貴❄ @Yuki_Nakashim]

本日20時からFC限定生配信です！
今日もまったりお届けします！
お楽しみにー！
#ゆきすと

[anju @173anchan]

yuki.....

[中島由貴❄ @Yuki_Nakashim]

本日20時からFC限定生配信です！
今日もまったりお届けします！
お楽しみにー！
#ゆきすと