the odd one out

I've never once in my life been allowed to hold on to something that makes me feel good
So i don't know why when i fond you i thought that i could

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

¥ . ~ ' * ~ ° · ´ Pined ` · ° ~ * ' ~ . ¥

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

There's a big difference between people who love you for what you are in relation to them and people who love you for who you are as a person

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

I feel needy for wanting to meet someone who wants to spend time with me and talk to me

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

I predicted the future once again

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

I feel like i'm stuck in this cycle of making a new online friend -> talk to them almost everyday for a while -> they get bored of me so we slowly stop talking -> barely ever talk anymore and now i'm alone again
All that while being completely unable to make new friends irl

[nyx @rottingonlinex]

i can be so afraid of being abandoned that i become difficult to stay around

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

My biggest dream is to marry into a loving family where they make me feel loved and welcomed that way i'll never feel alone and out of place again
It would be so so amazing
But dreams are just dreams

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

It's insane how much i crave to kiss someone

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

Genuinely why am i even here for?

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

It makes me feel so insanely disgusted with myself to notice how no one ever thinks about me first
Like no one has ever seen something that reminded them of me
No one has ever missed me or wanted to be with me
No one has ever chosen me over somebody or something else

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

I feel like such a loser i don't even know how to kiss someone

[Kris Valentine @cupids_archive]

You masturbate because you're horny. I masturbate because I'm depressed and need the dopamine. We are not the same.

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

My dream

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

The other day my step dad told me i should take care of my health or i'll regret it once i'm his age...... yeah nah i'm not living that long
It'll be a miracle if i make it past 30

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

I'm just sick of waiting for someone to actually want to spend time with me

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

I'm scared of dying without ever being loved
Like what would have been the point of me being alive in the first place

[𐙚 @lilmissbbybear]

i love reassurance, i like feeling wanted & cared for

[𝕾𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖋á𝖓 @stiofanLOL]

so many attempts of genuine connection i wish i never attempted in the first place

[the odd one out @19Dayswithme]

I'm so envious of people who are in a healthy longterm relationship
I can't even imagine how good it must feel to be loved because i've never experienced it
Just the idea of being able to give and receive affection from someone on a regular basis sounds insane to me