Raziel Unhinged | Side Account

a place for me to spam random thoughts and nsfw stuff | main: @razielwarmonic

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

Hiiiii~ I wanna use this account to post more IRL stuff, nsfw stuff, F*nsly updates, random thoughts and whatnot.

Sometimes I feel really chatty, or wanna talk about NSFW things but don’t wanna spam my main account so here we are! Enjoy!

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

I was very brave at my fasting belly ultrasound this morning. I can’t even have a sweet treat!🥺

In all seriousness I’m still in awe how fast my muscles exhaust atm. Took a nap, been slowly eating throughout the day, and the commotion from doing it still has me drained...

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

After living with abdominal pain for over a decade, I’m finally getting an abdominal ultrasound after, again, fighting with my doctor….
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.…. Which ofc also means more medical bills LOL. Keeping credit card companies in business. 🫡

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

I am actually arguing with my doctor in DMs btw (had to take a break because weekend) because my 8+ labs came back normal except for slightly elevated bilirubin but I do not feel normal. Obviously.

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

I’m at a point where I have to rest in between chewing my food because my jaw gets tired lol

What did I do to cause such exhaustion one might ask? I did a quick trip to the grocery store yesterday!

🥴

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

Going from I can eat most things in moderation and bread is my safety food to having a gluten intolerance and not being able to eat anything but oatmeal/rice/meat without feeling extremely sick basically overnight has really taken a toll on my mental health lol.

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

I’m sorry I need to rant and ramble, I’m so FUCKING tired of being in pain, hiding it, being brushed aside, told to just “eat better and exercise” like I’m stupid when there are increasingly more days where I can hardly get out of bed.

Can’t even sit at my pc half the time.

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

-your body to readjust from the synthetic hormones.

While that process is happening, it’s common to develop “leaky gut” which is a chronic inflammation of your gut for 3-6 months, if not longer.

I was taking the pill for painful PMS symptoms.

They say it’s safe. 🖕🖕🖕

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

Woman’s health is actually so fucking fucked up.

I stopped my birth control pill since they switched my generic and it was causing me bigger stomach aches than usual.

Just to find out, especially since I’ve been on it for 8+ years, that it takes AT LEAST 6 months for-

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

My little brother is closer and I talked to him, he’s going to try and move in with him asap for now but he has a child and a job, and needs to provide for his wife he’s separated from because she refuses to work, cook, or do anything.

So frustrating…

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

No one teaches you how to deal with your chronically ill dad who may be dying as a chronically ill child from halfway across the country.

I feel so useless it’s unbelievable. I just want to help him so bad. I’m scared. He’s falling down his stairs and I can’t be there.

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

Dear Santa,

Since wishing for a functioning brain is unreasonable, I am simply putting a wealthy submissive man wrapped in latex on my list instead.

Under the tree is optional.

Much love,
Raz

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

Despite the withdrawals though, just did my 3rd jog of the week!

Went from 10, to 20, to 25 mins.

Happy Friday! 🥳🩵

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

Btw withdrawals have still been in full effect the last couple days which include migraines, body aches, evening fevers/heat flashes, and general confusion with a hint of vertigo still lol

I’ve thought it was Thursday for over a week now. Everyday is Thursday! Idk why!

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

Did my first workout in about a year and a half or so, even before I fucked my legs over at AX.

I’m so freakishly out of shape it’s embarrassing and actually sad. I couldn’t finish the workout but a small step is still progress…

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

Here’s my business card.

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

I have the big sad today but at least I can feel sad. The medication did actually numb me out.

It feels weird to feel happy to be sad but it’s because I’m feeling emotions again. 🥹

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

I know I’m in a mood when I decide to impulse buy a whole fucking Dungeness crab to snack on with crackers on the couch while watching comfort streamers

💀

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

Day 3: hot cold hot cold hot cold

constantly painfully gassy

and still some vertigo and such weee

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

Day 2: can’t see straight with some lightheadedness and dizziness. It’s like being drunk without the fun.

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

Day 2: can’t see straight with some lightheadedness and dizziness. It’s like being drunk without the fun.

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

Stopping antidepressant because it’s stressing me out and not helping, including giving additional stomach aches

gunna be hell for a couple of weeks

I hate it here (let me be dramatic pls)

[Raziel Unhinged | Side Account @1eizar]

Stopping antidepressant because it’s stressing me out and not helping, including giving additional stomach aches

gunna be hell for a couple of weeks

I hate it here (let me be dramatic pls)