Nobody sees the 5am runs.
Nobody sees me choosing a salad over fries.
Nobody sees me doing yoga in a peaceful sunlit room.
Because I don’t do any of that shit.
“If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.” - C.S. Lewis
I have failed God more times than I can count. I have known better and still chosen wrong. And yet He still calls me His, still forgives my sins, and still stays. Grace like that wrecks me in the best way and leaves me undone with gratitude.