If you are seeing this, this might be the last time you see me. Im not the type of person to share my business but I got nothing to hide or to lose so heres what ive been dealing with for MONTHS + why you should stay away from ffxiv raiders.
I was in a situationship that was based off on the agreement that im not looking for a relationship. I found out that they were telling people we were dating on o off for 10 years? We dated a long time ago 10 years ago but it only really lasted for a few months. I just recently started talking to them again + we both decided to be in a situationship because at that time, I was griefing with the fact that my mother was dying + they were okay with giving me emotional attention. We had a fight because I heard they were telling people lies + decided to bring up boundaries again which turned to them removing me. This was 6 days before my mom passed away. They tried to say sorry but how I have discord setup only friends can dm me. They reached out on twitter + I accepted their apology because I was dealing with more important things like my mother dying. Couple days later my mom passes away. Couple days later they throw another tantrum. Which I just glazed over.
Couple months pass by + things arent going well + I heard from another person who we will call Zack that he was telling more lies + I decided that maybe it would be best to just end the situationship all together cause it seemed like it was toxic for the both of us. He wanted more then I could give even tho it was agreed upon. Later that evening during raid they tell more lies to my friends. I dont care if you lie + hurt me but when it comes to my friends, that’s when I cross the line. I then hear from Zach that back in April (the month my mom passed away) that he started sexually flirting sending messages to a TAKEN female friend of theirs. When that female friend goes “hey wtf” apparently he tells her that hes currently sexually frustrated with his gf. Im not even mad about him sending messages cause we werent dating. But I have a moral issue with doing that to a taken person. Also if we indulge in his “reality” you mean your girlfriend who is currently dealing with the death of her mother?
So I decided to tell my friends the truth of everything because I wasnt going to allow them to be lied to. I wasnt trying to convince anything to them. I just told them everything ive been going through. So they decided they didnt want to be around someone like that. So we all removed and blocked him.
Okay lets go back to Zach. He ended up helping me through the whole thing because he was actually raiding with them. We became friends pretty quickly but I still mention how the reason the first guy + I had issues was because they didnt understand that I dont want a relationship. He had really good input + defended my name + was telling me how that guys behavior was inappropriate.
Well fast forward a month + I have a few more life changing moments + im still dealing alot with grief. I tend to go MIA but still tried to be there for my friends. Zach goes out of the blue “I’m not a very flirtatious person until I know it’s reciprocated. Then its easy lol. I do try to throw signs out there when I do though” which of course in my head im like wtf? I dont even know how to respond + just sent him an emoji. So of course I start pulling away + putting distance. I still try to respond to things but not as often + im still dealing with a lot of my plate.
I think a week goes by + he sends me a message that im just honestly so shocked by + have no idea how to respond. Literally saying how he helped me during the time with the other guy. As im taking time to figure out how to respond which is 2 hrs later, I watch in real time of him deleting messages + then he sends another message saying basically thanks for confirming his messages + that this is extremely awkward for him + then removed me.
WHAT ABOUT ME? Its awkward for me?!
I just wanted to see a post of someone I see fits from frequently and I was wondering why I couldn’t, and I’m BLOCKED? What did I do, come back please 😭