다빈

my everything.

[다빈 @222dabvin]

me as frick !
#hitwt

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level head, have mercy .

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I tried to be good, am I no good? I just wanted to be yours, can I be yours?

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I find myself trying to be the version of You that exists in my head.

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I just want to feel comfortable being myself around someone. I don't want to feel weird or judged. I want to feel comfortable and safe.

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I'm on a walk at 10:38 pm and I have broken down into tears Only twice.

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I Carry so much of you with me still that I am in an abusive relationship with myself.

[27. @dimvji]

you just have to get really good at continuing

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the barrier between you and what you want is suffering. it always has been, and always will be.

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with ai everywhere, and society trending the way it is, it feels like authenticity is dying. i feel compelled now more than ever to create something real and something me. idk.

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i really do feel a calling for music in this way. i know what i need to do. but the barrier to entry feels massive, i pick up the guitar and it takes way too long for me to swap between chords. i know i need to just push through.

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i really want to get to the point where i am familiar enough with the guitar that it is not something i consider, just a pen i use to draw, an instrument i use to compose.

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so its kind of true. i didnt really know anything about anything but just sat in front of krita for like 45 hrs and made it. and im sure if i would have stuck with it, i would be an actually decent artist by now.

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like its not amazing but at one point i actually just sat down 6 hrs a day for like a week to draw this and i had never really drawn anything before. imagine if i would have stuck with it.

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i watched a dr k video that explained why doers do, and the answer was theory crafting. i had just finished binging the nge rebuilds and wanted to create this picture of rei but in the rebuild outfit.

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the version of myself who believes that i can do anything if i tried hard enough is withering away and i desperately need to save her.

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id happily take all those bullets inside you and put them inside myself.

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and i didn't believe them when they told me that there was no saving you.

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pink cloud summer .