I made a purchase today. I was so happy about it but when I left the place and got into my car I felt an overwhelming sense of sadness because you weren’t here with me to experience it. I want to FaceTime you and show you so bad but I’m fighting myself I wish it wasn’t like this.
I never wanted it to be this way. I never wanted to stop talking to you, I hate that you made me do this. Why couldn’t you just be good to me? I tried everything to make you happy. Was it ever enough? You broke me down so much, so many nights I stayed up crying trying to fix us..
April 12th 8:24pm. I’m sitting here, no one to call, no one to talk to, all alone. The world’s quiet. No loud cars going up and down my street like there usually is. My heart’s heavy, realizing the fact that I will always be alone.