i finally lost her eventually i guess shes just Outside now cuz at some point she turned around and stopped trying to walk with me so i have fucking silence oh my god but i cant even relax because im scared she could come home at any moment😭😭😭😭😭😭
i wake up, i cry over spilt milk, put all of my eggs in one basket, bite off more than i can chew, jump the gun, fly off the handle and then die on that hill
we were supposed to have a food shelf apt today and i guess were missing it Again cause my mom is having delusions hashtag thanks mom 👍👍😇 i wanna jump off a building
honestly think ill kill myself tomorrow (or the day after tomorrow cause itd be mean to rosa) i cant take my mom anymore shes gotten so much worse and just im really depressed. done with how my life is.
i cant find the courage to tell anyone that i want to die