The30YearOldOrphan

An authentic & unapologetic view of millennial grief. Mom: 5/14/20 eight months later Dad: 1/16/21

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

My parents are dead.

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

Thought I handled my moms first #deathAnniversary last year pretty well, but then I remembered I jumped out of a moving car and hid in a field. Guess there truly is no wrong way to grieve!! #The30YearOldOrphan #griefsupport

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

Like am I right guys or am I right? Heyooooo #The30YearOldOrphan #Adultorphan #Griefsupport

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

One day some archaeologist is going to find all of my very sad notebooks with these phrases and be perplexed.

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

What pisses me off about grief are those phrases like *Time heals all* thanks for the platitude my guy but what the fuck do I do with all this pain I have now?! I want tangible fucking solutions FOR RIGHT NOW So here's one.. when you're all out sobbing, when your face is a faucet

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

feel happy or less lonely, but you'll feel in control. You'll have done something. You'll be out of your head and you'll feel the smoothness of your pen on paper & that's better than anything else you're feeling at that moment. #The30YearOldOrphan #Grief #Loss #Griefsupport

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

@Lisa28061925 Sending you so much love and light. I'm thinking about you often!

[Cherry Morrello @CherryMorrello]

Good health is a crown on an old man’s head that only the ill can see.

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

@Lisa28061925 You’re not going crazy. You’re grieving. The emotions are so big and volatile it can feel like you’re going crazy. But you’re not. You’re not alone. There’s nothing I can say to alleviate your pain. It’s horrible. But you’re not alone. ♥️

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

It cuts my insides up to think of how one day I’ll have a baby & my Mom & Dad will never meet them. They won’t get to be doting grandparents. I won’t just be able to ask them how do I do this?! How do I raise a child?! It just rocks me to my core. #The30YearOldOrphan

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

Do you ever wake up and pull a Steve Erwin like *CRIKEY! What is this strange unfamiliar feeling? Oh wooo… is this… happiness? Such a rarity in these parts but she’s a beaut! Don’t think about it too much. Don’t scare it. She’s a fickle creecha* #The30YearOldOrphan #Grief

[Jane Cardillo @JaneCardillo]

There
is
no
expiry
date
on
grief

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

@Lisa28061925 Your replies always warm my ♥️

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

My #Mom left me a voicemail where she apologized for not calling me back when she knew I was upset about work bc she was feeling sick. It guts me. That’s only something your mom would do. Apologize for taking care of her life threatening disease instead of listening to me cry

[Jeff D. Lowe @JeffDLowe]

Some of my dad’s favorite things at his service and celebration of life, his family, his golf clubs (@onebite headcover), Cleveland sports, and his favorite fast food treat: apple pies from @Whataburger.

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

@ajscubamorris THEY CAN GO FUCK THEMSELVES. They can go fuck right off. RIGHT OFF

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

about work, which doesn’t even truly matter. She was literally apologizing for being sick, something she can’t help, instead of listening to me whine. That’s such a mom move to apologize like that. There’s no love like your moms #The30YearOldOrphan #Loss #MissyouMom

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

There has to be something going on with the moon currently because I’m turbo sad.

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

Man I so often feel like I have no one to turn to

[The30YearOldOrphan @30YearOldOrphan]

Sometimes I can’t even comprehend what’s happening to me. To be fair I’ve had 3 drinks but I can’t comprehend that my back hurts and I used the same lidocaine my mom used almost two years ago? But she’s dead? But the icy hot still hasn’t expired? #The30YearOldOrphan