olivia

19. stonerexic ♀️

[olivia @3vildem0n]

I haven't posted on here in a long time lol. I'm doing a lot better now in terms of my eating and while it's not perfect, my life doesn't revolve around food anymore.

I don't obsess over my body, I feel either positive/neautral towards it. Also go gym but not an extreme amount.

[olivia @3vildem0n]

coming on here feels like imposter syndrome now that I gained all the weight back :( the idea of restricting feels so foreign to me now

[olivia @3vildem0n]

gained all the weight back
sh relapse
depression

but finally out this binge cycle!!

[olivia @3vildem0n]

relapsed in sh last night... I've hit rock bottom 😭���

[olivia @3vildem0n]

@weediets zukky 🥰🥰

[olivia @3vildem0n]

does any1 else in a binge cycle want to be accountability buddies (and friends)

[olivia @3vildem0n]

this binge cycle has gotten me back to my pre ed weight (but not my sw). I feel disgusting and I don't know what to do to stop eating. it just feels so compulsive.

[olivia @3vildem0n]

@Milkystudios1 I first got chest bones at 44kg but now I'm above and they're still visible

[olivia @3vildem0n]

only woman I'll call a bitch is my mother

[olivia @3vildem0n]

bouta get high w some ppl and ruin the vibe by crying

[olivia @3vildem0n]

@fl3shd1et thank you sm my love 🫶🏼🫶🏼

[olivia @3vildem0n]

self harm urges going crazy :(

[olivia @3vildem0n]

cannot sleep.. but was so tired earlier. so confused

[olivia @3vildem0n]

my knee is feeling better 😁😁😁

[olivia @3vildem0n]

even tho I gained weight there's a silver lining in that I think a lot of it is muscle bc I'm slimmer than how I looked b4 at this current weight

[olivia @3vildem0n]

I wanna sh so bad... but I wont

[olivia @3vildem0n]

gained 6kg in less than 2 months LOLOLOL

[olivia @3vildem0n]

imagine having contamination ocd during the middle ages when there's shit on the street

[olivia @3vildem0n]

gonna weigh myself tmr morning for the first time in a while.. 😖

[olivia @3vildem0n]

people on quora will plead with you to not start shing but in the same post will give you step by step instructions on getting blades