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shedtwt/drugtwt (not new just deleted old acc)
20F
drunkorexic in recovery purgatory
#1 chew and spit lover
tumblr: @/4ngel0fdise4se (more activ on here)

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

i weigh over 100 lbs now for the first time in over a year. i can't believe i let myself go this much. i'm such a disgusting tub of lard and i don't deserve anything good in life.

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

god do you know how much i wish i didnt have work/school just so i can starve full time? like i get having an ED is life-destroying but sometimes i get jealous of those bmi 12 ppl who just get to bedrot all day. its awful i know but its the only thing getting in the way for me

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

watching myself get fatter every single day and there's barely anything i can do about it bc i fucked my metabolism up so much i dont even lose weight as fast as i used to

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

i dont know what would trigger my body dysmorphia more, being short and having an average bmi at 41kg or being tall and having a low bmi at 55kg

[Chuu🪽🇫🇮 (Adults DNF) @pienkani]

If you've never had BED, and I mean REAL BED, none of that 200cal binge bs, then you shouldn't be allowed to give tips on not binging

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

@zumicel 20

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

@LazyRiver__ 39 kg :,) but thats only bc im short af i wasnt even that uw then

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

@sleepwalklottie @_anouskaa woahhh the blonde suits u so well i didnt even realize it wasnt ur natural hair colour thats crazy

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

@d0llymars no bc lactose intolerance occurs when ur born without lactase, an enzyme that allows you to digest lactose, if you were able to consume dairy before then u should be chill

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

hi i'm still alive. still starving myself n doing coke every week. idk what to tell yall.

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

breakfast is my fav meal i'm always either a dinner or lunch skipper depending on whether i'm at work or school

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

went full circle and now i have a reputation at my work as "the girl who eats a fuckton" bc of my extreme hunger :,) if only these guys knew

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

@c0axcabl3 i work in tree planting :33

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

if 4 pastries is considered a binge to you guys yall would go apeshit if you saw the amount of food i eat while going through extreme hunger AND working a manual labour job (also yea im employed now thats why i havent been active lolz)

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

@americanoand yeah your body isnt burning as much when ur unconscious so ur not gonna feel hungry when ur asleep but when ur awake u will. when u go through EH trust me you will know.

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

@skinnyharli no i pussied out and i just c/s them :,)

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

gonna try and teach myself how to purge properly. i think the reason i suck at it is bc i keep doing it with foods that are notoriously hard to purge. these ice cream bars should be good practice.

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

@pulchromors i like ur beard ive never seen it that long before :33 stay safe

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

@pulchromors

[⋆༺𓆩RJ𓆪༻⋆ @4dd1ct3d2sh]

lately ive been using finely chopped iceberg lettuce instead of celery in my tuna salad and it actually tastes so much better plus it doesnt have that weird ass stringy shit that you can't chew