i dreamt someone i envy treating me in an ideal way and it genuinely makes me want to kill myself
i hate everyone in my life and even if they like me and cherish me it disgusts me
fictional characters are the only thing that ever genuinely cared about me with purity
i don't think abt losing my arm/my vocal chords as much as I used to but now i think a lot about having really thin metal strands hammered through it and having them stuck there for some time
although i still think about the vocal chord thing every now and then
“i love jiraikei and i am becoming jirai but shedtwt is so problematic and controversial it makes me wanna cry and scream i wanna cancel shedtwt people who do that stuff r so disturbing and people who wanna kill people and themselvesalso;-;”LARP LARP LARPP GET OUT IDIOT SHITALIAN
Even as a misandrist, I can't say I treat men anywhere nearly as badly as men treat women, because I don't rape or assault them. That's how awful men's treatment of women is.