jude ☘︎

disordered diary⠀|⠀eighteen

[nyan @m3llownyan]

I Want to be seenDo I Need to kill myself to get noticed by Anyone

[jude ☘︎ @4mourning]

i want a hug from my Mom i cant stop crying

[Blair @vanillabun777]

hi can you text me in a happier tone, i’m extremely sensitive

[jude ☘︎ @4mourning]

genuinely cant even ask to hang out without getting so anxious it hurts

[jude ☘︎ @4mourning]

this is why i dont journal because i will genuinely lie and go. yeah i had a great day today! while my tears drip on the page

[⚭ @lekimgym]

i’m very self aware. which hasn’t solved anything.

[ieva @mourninglambs]

I want to be happy so badly but there’s always this lingering disgust I have with myself it’s literally permeated into my heart. I’m alright

[jude ☘︎ @4mourning]

i guess today is gonna suck

[jude ☘︎ @4mourning]

im so sad

[jude ☘︎ @4mourning]

God im pathetic

[jude ☘︎ @4mourning]

have yet to finish my college application and the deadline is tmrw but ive been too anxious to call all month

[jude ☘︎ @4mourning]

the fact that im physically incapable of vom purging is the only thing stopping me from becoming worlds best b/per

[lynn ☕️ @omadlynn]

“i need to lock in and lose weight” i say as i continue to eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and

[jude ☘︎ @4mourning]

all i do is cry

[lana 🎼 @1kgtall]

complaining about my weight when all i have to do is not eat

[jude ☘︎ @4mourning]

the urge to hurt myself getting worse

[ِ @anjoazl]

Dostoevsky was right, my worst sin is, in fact, destroying and betraying myself for nothing

[jude ☘︎ @4mourning]

my froyo is rock solid

[jude ☘︎ @4mourning]

Im Fat…