5ci/30 this where i can talk about my ocs kissing and stuff without getting embarrassed. i probably wont use this account much tho. 18+ only btw thanks
i also feel dumb that im more bothered about this stuff effecting my ability to be artistically creative with others than i am about it effecting my real regular life. i don’t know what’s wrong with me
i wish i was a better writer for like. rp reasons and stuff everyone here knows how i feel about that. but also bc i just have a hard time putting how i feel into words eloquently in general. i feel like i talk like a caveman compared to the people around me and it makes
‘explicit but not too explicit or i’ll get scared’ feels so dumb. the concept of sex in general makes me feel gross if i think about it too hard and its embarrassing. normal human thing and im still being 12 about it. whatever.
whenever i spend time with people irl i just think about how i want to be alone. i feel like im too ‘independent’ to maintain my valuable relationships but not independent enough to not feel horribly lonely all the time and crushed when im not chosen. i cant win
😵💫 feeling lousy for no good reason
it sucks how inferior and like. inhuman i feel so often. like i cant perform Being A Person good enough to feel like i have friend value. i have so little to offer and it drives me crazy i cant draw enough, im not good at Real conversations
i keep checking this account to be like 'i wonder if theres any Content that i want to see on here rn' and then remember that what i want to see is my ocs and that..
doesnt exist. obviously. LOL
@johreafterdark yesss i feel you 100% i love those shades too 🤩 good taste
im also a blue green fan im shaking your hand. tho i’d say ‘my color’ is more of a medium/dark teal