I already feel miserable about myself
Put some clothes to hide my belly
And on top of me being fat
I have my periods so I’m even more bloated
And when my mom went to take a pic of my dad and I
She reminded me again
To suck my belly in
Like I wasn’t doing it already…
I was sitting on my chair balancing myself with my feet under the table
And then when I stopped,the chairs foot was on my dads foot and it hurted him
I feel so bad
If I wasn’t so fat like a monstruous pig I wouldn’t have hurted him like that
I’m so ashamed of what I’ve become
And to think that I’ve always hated my body because I thought I was fat but now I really am hurts so fucking deep
How did i let this happen
I’m such a lazy and greedy pig
I wish it would have ended when I tried on that random night
Nothing that I did next would have happened to anyone if I just didn’t existed then.
And why just why it didn’t work that night people would have moved on already and have less problems like idk