Haseeb Safdar Ali

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Nishtar class of 2025

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

I feel like i am swirling, hearing wind noise and windows crackling, i feel like i am swirling and never coming back.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

to disappear gradually and fade away like mist.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

for the night remembers only
the one who stayed to burn, and the one who came to be burnt.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

to be anything but a burden to anyone.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

an episode of self hate.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

resist that urge to escape from daily life, will i ever be able to or
i'll always be escaping.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

i haven't had the time to think things lately so i thought its getting better, i have been improving but the moment i got to take a sigh from life, everything came back to me.
first i thought i have been acting up to make things hard for me, while nothing really happens in

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

daily life, i still am cautious, acting coward, distancing myself and escaping. i still think i have wrong coping mechanisms and i need to work on it as i cannot do it for life i am left with.
The point still stands at where do i start from, what should i do with myself to

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

and the loser has to fall.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

@_paradox_bobby okay

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

i sometimes sit and stare at the void.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

@_paradox_bobby @MU7_AM1L @_NaadanParinda_ me

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

and when i come back to being myself at the end of mania, to confront myself, to confront the fact that i exist in an endless loop of disappointment and it might never end.
has to happen.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

same self hate.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

next arc.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

next arc.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

وے ماہیا میرا جی کردا گھر چھڈ کے ملنگ ہو جاواں

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

One year has it been.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

everyone is the same for me.

its hard but i have been managing just fine.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

there are often times when i read some quotes, some stories, lyrics of a song, lines from some books and start thinking about myself, usually i ignore them as they are not related but once in a time, something so relatable appears, that i get zoned out thinking about it.

[Haseeb Safdar Ali @7disillusionist]

ofcourse, but can't help me themselves so at the end, i end up doing it myself so what's the point in asking, i don't even remember one thing i asked any of my friends to do for me because i didn't want to be disappointed by them anymore, and its not only friends,