eleanor; bfd: 11

tw: ed twitter

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

eating disorders are not only "losing weight and looking like a dead one" no. you can gain weight, maintain the same weight over and over, binging then purging, or maybe fasting. ITS A MENTAL ILLNESS, not only a physical one.

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

anyways i’m at the hospital because someone failed at breathing LMAO HOW PATHETIC CAN YOU IMAGINE i’m someone

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

its the ✨accuracy✨ for me

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

AND im also 11 days binge free today. i cant believe it. that seems incredibly crazy to me now. wow i’m proud of myself for once :)

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

anyways,, i’m abt to buy lotssss of skirts from shein. in a "tennis skirt" style <3

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

my parents n my grandma just commented on the fact that i lost "sO mUcH wEiGhT" like daaaamn thank you for hyping me up 🥰

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

im venting my heart out. don’t make me feel bad abt it pls :(

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

an eating disorder? seriously? that sounds pathetic. but guess im pathetic now. what’s new

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

like. damn wtf

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

i feel ashamed to tell him that i struggle with food even tho i’m 100% sure he’ll just try to help me to overcome this :(

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

but i just don’t know how to tell him

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

and now my boyfriend is scared that something might happen to me. he doesn’t even know i have an ed

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

i lost SO MUCH appetite it’s crazy. i’m barely eating 600 cals a day and i cant do anything abt it. i just cant "eAt mOrE".

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

i haven’t seen my boyfriend in 2 months and he knows i’m in tears rn but what is he doing? on the phone with his group of friends talking about a "problem"? yeah i’m jealous but like, text me back? please?

[moochie @moochimoou]

eating disorders and ed twt are more than anorexia and bulimia; a thread

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

@athenaofthewind omg i didn’t think about this!!! thank you so much!! that’s what i’m gonna do!! thank youuu <33

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

someone please be proud of me. ananas was a huge fear food of mine and i just had some for breakfast 🥺🥺🥺

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

@IunachiId thank you so much 🥺🥺🥺

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

my dad just commented on the fact that it seemed that i lost weight. IM SO HAPPY RN

[eleanor; bfd: 11 @95lbsdoll]

also! update: i got a boyfriend 🙈