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shedtwt ,, vampire boy who likes to cut himself nd starve

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

why do people think I'm a top gulps I'm honored but guys I love getting my shi rocked, not the other way around

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

@Nina4kcal TYYYY

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

kinda forget I have like severe scars from sh and that's why people get weird around me

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

I need to stop getting in relationships knowing I'll just get fucking hurt because apparently I can't be loved without it

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

how to soft launch my depression is coming back

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

@thearmbutcher THANK YOUUU THAT MEANS ALOT TO ME

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

@Maiyamrod Thank you!!!

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

got temp banned for posting my totally fake sh.. ugh

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

love the red but I wanna dye it blue again, but every time I think of younger me... holy glow up tho

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

@bunniswirllll THANK YOUU AND YES

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

@pianosmelodyy Thank you ( ´∀｀)

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

@rev_killjoi because I do?... How tf is it impossible?..

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

Never realize how bad it was until it's gone

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

@SlweepSofi80724 @ImSayingHe2v78 No deadass

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

Oh my god S9 e2 Rick and Morty made me fucking ill holy shit

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

oh my god I forgot how fucked up I was after Eli, holy shit it was so bad and after being raped again I like don't care at all???? Trauma response to push it down ig but omg

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

This thread is just my thoughts about this topic, but I love my friends and missed them. Shout out everynyan, and thank you for making me feel loved and that I'm worth more than my disordered thoughts

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

being around my skinny friends again makes me realize the difference in eating habits; only eating when hungry + eating slow until they aren't hungry anymore, never enough to be full. growing up in a fat family + trauma makes me eat more than enough in fear of not having it again

[vic '' @9daysinhell]

So when she kicked me out I hoarded food and binged in fear of not having food or just not eating at all because it felt like freedom not being forced to eat + way too much food for an eleven year old. I'm better now, but sometimes I still think of it