aviendha (angoscioso)

hope acknowledges the reality of defeat whilst not being itself destroyed by it

[aviendha (angoscioso) @AV1ENDHA]

This is My Fucking Twitter Account. I talk about Enter Shikari, My Mental Illness, Feelings, and Experiences In Life, and The Global Descent Into Demonic Fascism.

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@kaoruhna The Capitalism Effect

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@baby8byte Kratom literally almost made me blow my shit smoov off. I quit by being hospitalized for a week and using gabapentin and trazodone for the WDs I’d mostly only get trying to sleep. never will I do that shit again. I used it for like 3 years chronically

[aviendha (angoscioso) @AV1ENDHA]

@thecupofdenial Thank you 💜

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Feeling like I’m actually physically nearing death and having thoughts of suicide at the same time is fucking wild dude. Can a bitch just live

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@hometown_moth Thanks Teigan 💜

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Kinda funny how the silence typically starts when I get in episodes, right when I need support and interaction the most. lol

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I have phases in life where many of my loved ones talk to me and I have several conversations going and lots of interactions with people and then after that nobody talks to me or interacts with me unless they have to for 2+ weeks and it’s not good 4 me

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When will I be aviendha (avec abandon) again im tired of being angoscioso grandpa

[aviendha (angoscioso) @AV1ENDHA]

Can attest. Been in therapy for most of the past 15 years and only just started feeling like I was benefitting from it, but even that said I’m still a conglomeration of mental health symptoms multiple days of the week

[yana @Madame_Ennui]

When people say “you need to just unlearn your trauma and go to therapy, you’re an adult” they seem to think there’s a magical therapy switch where you go to therapy and within 180 days you just become a more socially acceptable person that’s released their baggage

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@girlfisting Yeah I’ve heard that too. That’s exactly what happened to my brother. His tolerance was too low for the tiny little bit too much he took

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@girlfisting Well on the bright side when i was in psychosis and fucking with hard drugs a little bit he made it clear in a way he’s by my side so that’s nice

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@girlfisting While maintaining a career as a personal trainer and he just died alone in his car in a grocery store parking lot. It’s tragic in basically all circumstances even in those where everyone sees it coming

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@girlfisting I mean yeah that’s kinda how ODs are sometimes. You can be handling the bullshit of general life and life with addiction just fine and then it just takes taking a lil too much one time or dirty shit and then you’re done for. My brother relapsed on H for the first time in a year+

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Memory so bad I think I had a dream where I kept forgetting shit last night

[aviendha (angoscioso) @AV1ENDHA]

True kindness is a form of love

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*depressed and spazzing out and dissociating a bit and insomnia live at Brixton 07 comes on*
Rou: I only smoke weed when I need to-
*immediately grabs bowl and grinder*

[aviendha (angoscioso) @AV1ENDHA]

I have a lot of insight in suffering and sorrow but nobody give a fuck

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brain problems. How fucking ironic right?

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Experiencing brain pressure & pain in a localized area and cognitive decline right? And also chest pain and shortness of breath. So I went to the ED because of the chest pain. They found nothing but elevated d Dimer which can indicate a blood clot. I forgot to tell the dr abt the