@luluyam: Are your lyrics inspired by your real life with names changed? I like to imagine Phan couldn't save Luci and carried that guilt until finding love dancing among the tulips. Also, was "Say My Name" inspired by Jax coming out as trans in The Amazing Digital Circus?
I'd much rather internalize my thoughts than actually speak them out into the world, which is ironic in this case because I'm practically doing the exact opposite thing