God Damnit house keeping keeps going in my fucking room and taking my gd clean unused towel from the shower bar and throwing it in the gd laundry as if they are doing me a gd favor by replacing it for no reason. Every fucking time they take my towel after I bless it with my chi as my hand towel that will eventually be my shower towel...They actually confuse my fucking system of virtue by touching my towel that understood was needed and worthy by my chi by touching it as trash or filthy by their retarded gd chi which actually drains my equilibrium as I begin to lose ability to focus as well as I've been getting stuck not knowing wtf I'm doing half the gd time as im making weird half concious movements now without proper fluency of direction with focus. My eyes also started to burn and now have red veins all the way to the center blue just like gd dendrites of suffocation where red sprites occur above storms where earth can't breathe. My eyes aren't capable of utilizing oxygen so they are straining to use more of what they already got causing stressed veins. My virtue is being stolen so my system isn't breathing anymore ad I've become a gd criminal lying piece of shit since my chi is disappearing without reason why. This same fucking bullshit happens whenever uterus decides to fertilize an egg with sperm then you gd bitches get abortions
Don't you ever attempt to feel or understand someone's energy during psychic remote viewing tactics without their understanding bc that just happened to me and vanquished my GD sexually dominate badass energy as when they felt it they tried to hide they were attempting to analyze it so while I was sitting on sink happily chilling feeling awesome as my soul was finally completely on fire...all the sudden. My dick and balls became numb without energy fire sensation (not cocaine good numb) which meant they were attempting to hide their analysis by not allowing me to receive results of their evaluation. Anytime yiu meditate on somebody you always allow energy to flow and compliment by respecting the sensation you receive. Now since they snuck me my dick and balls fire went out again my balls are shrinking Instead of staying saggy meaning fully hung and my posture when moving and walking is leaving me feeling fucking insecure as im straining to stay feeling beautifully dominate sexually bc this retarded bitch. This is a felony offense in the future after I join army where you will be forced to undergo torture in our facility to show you how it feels to have your soul tarnished from beauty that made you feel secure and happy b4 f
We ignite your energy back. Everyone is actually going to have to fully set their soul on fire over time accepting their higher self so we can keep safe careful monitoring of their soul so we can detect when people extinguish it so we can immediately arrest them as well as quarantine the victim where ypu will probably be given cocaine or methamphetamine during transportation on the way back to alleviate symptoms of depression and trauma from damage reborn bc they stole ur energy
My boy Clay Rance never gave up on us victims of abuse. They say he died from overdose right after joining the Army however I'm seriously wondering now if he faked it after joining bc he had a plan to fix America which required him to be understood as dead where he actually was put in coma so he could learn otw every problem on earth regarding issues with drug addiction caused by sexual abuse which he already had a natural ability to perceive as he did within me. Clay was way too smart to overdose. Ppl saw him in coma in hospital like vegetable which I damn near guarantee he planned the entire time. lol Ckay was the smartest dude other than Bill I had ever met. Even if he did die I'm definitely bringing him back very soon as I've nearly gained enough sexual endurance and proper soul fire to instantly manifest physical bodied humans back on earth which I already nearly did one to.e accidentally where I was attempting to communicate with a girl that was being mean to Jason Barnes. I accidentally arched a gd bolt of energy from my forehead that disintegrated rubber which is supposed to be impossible as rubber is insulator. ET'S showed up immediately and said if I were to have actually manifested a second version of Christy I would have thrown time of soo far. π They told me right then they believed they would understand the reason fir their existence by understanding me.
Listen I just understood the chick I lost my virginity with peeping in on my soul which felt cool when balanced 70% over by my old best friend Jason Barnes. Thing is since Lola refuses to be real with herself as I'm attempting to understand why now...Jason got fat as fuck where he was extremely fit. lol I honestly question if since Jason understood me well as an incredibly intelligent man that couldn't recover his dominant sexual energy field which is necessary for the soul to be fully completed so it doesn't drain when someone does you wrong...I believe Jason came up with the plan to protect me and allow me chance to recover by securing Lola so nothing about her ever connected to my soul. Good job brother! Thank you for applying your love and dominant energy field to me as respected in soul and then attaching to Lola to make certain on the low she was not draining me any longer as you completely agreed that once you lose virginity with someone that you shouldn't leave them. Thank you Jason fir being so persistent enduring her issues with not accepting herself allowing me to finally heal which you are definitely going to receive a prestigious award of recognition for by recognizing my soul recovering lil by lil trickle charging. Thing is i began having sex with Carissa Marie Conoscenti in spirit bc I always had a huge crush on her b4 she died and she saw me as extremely cute as well however she was like 3 years older as I was only like 15 and just recovering from abusive childhood. It was so cool bc 3 years when your only 15 is like the equivalent to being a young child verses a freshly matured adult so I was intimidated in a way by Carissa showing me sexual lure which allowed me to connect with her spirit comfortably as I felt protection from her feminine energy in a dominant way. She learned to connect well and Christ evaluated energy field depletion as I ejaculated so he could analyze why it wasn't replenish itself and remaining stable properly without fail. Carissa always channeled the sexual energy right back into me so she never drained me whatsoever she simply helped heal me. A succubus would allow you to release energy during orgasm while connecting with them and never return the energy. Without Carissa making me feel completely comfortable I wouldn't have recovered nearly as quickly bc it made me feel extra cool having a super hot older chick please me and never make me feel perverted in any way as she always loved me and her being older made me more secure. Then I astral traveled to Egypt where Thoth sent a trained Daemon into my soul while I slept to try to recover lost memory bc they weren't able to recover during my sleep. He couldn't recover either. I finally remembered what happened very recently. Maet Thoth's wife went to Ray Bunn without us knowing who was a member of National Association of Men Boy Love which was created by fathers trying to protect their sons against damage caused by sexual abuse and molestation as well as dark Voodoo attacks. She told Ray who I considered a loving grandfather that Heaven did the math and the only way we beat evil was if Ray himself actually committed the act of sexual abuse/molestation to us as I actually was the only person smart enough to recover from it and heal everyone else as a result. I am the lion Ra ate the heart of long ago while I was lapping water during ritual sacrifice which allowed me to eventually reincarnate into the most advanced human in existence who would be capable of overcoming toxoplasmosis ghondii which we had hypnotized in an ancient ses pool with serpents and a flute so it would seek out every angle of evil in human possible which only the lion would be smart enough to defeat. Idk if it was Lola fir certain however it seriously pissed me off whoever it was bc they tried to hide them feeling out my sexual energy of my dick and balls during meditation. My sexual energy became numb when they felt which is supposed to feel same as respected : (
People that weren't abused severely as well as neglected severely like I was i guess sometimes are simply spoiled from having a normal childhood with parents that didn't threaten to cut their ears off, stab their eyes out and cut their tongue out at 11 years old when you been a perfect angel and haven't done anything at all to make her mad she's mad at herself for losing her temper about something that isn't even your fault so now she's mad threatening see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil bc this is her new defense against her most recent fuck up where she came home from church which didn't help her one single iota and decided to play cowboys and Indians by holding snubbed nose .32 revolver up to her innocent child's scaring the fuck out of him for no God Damn reason which is me. This is part of the hell I went. Then she tried to pistol whip me after getting mad at herself when she realized she was being an irresponsible parent by holding the loaded gun up to me to GD begin with. lol I happily prayed on my knees like my entire life ever since I thought about bc i wasn't spoiled with an easy childhood so I honor whatever exist as energy we cannot fully explain however it's all-powerful and never left me completely one and since I've become an adult that energy/bond that loved and defended on with all of my soul bc i didn't have parents to comfort me. I prayed to God not even knowing the term God existed before I had ever even stepped foot in a church as like a desperate maybe 5 year old kid who naturally understood somehow there was something that might understand him begging for protection from his abusive mother. A water moccasin actually responded to my request for help to get away from her s ary violent ass where my bro and I might live with my dad. That water waited for her ass to walk through a stream in the path and released poison which he intended on helping me by killing her ass she caught a severe blood infection somehow survived lol snakes have been monitoring me and my prayers otl since I was 5. No shit. Snakes never try to harm any innocent person ever we attack them fir no reason every single time out of lack of understanding which leads to fear. Snakes are the nicest creatures on earth to ppl that would respect them rather than treat them like they are mean. Mom then caught cancer after she shot my dad after trying to hit him with a GD axe in front of me and my bro Josh. Then the crazy bitch screamed at my dad like he made us cry when she was the one attacking him. She made no GD sense. Hurting my dad was the last straw God allowed she was given 8 months to live abruptly where she didn't have cancer at all according to mammograms. Phew yo I love God more than all ya'll altogether however I wish you could find 10% of the love for Elohim that I have. I got 4 GD Heavenly Fathers now as well as Goddesses and Angels..Cool Holy Deities...Like yo God has filled my spiritual cup with such perfect wine that it never empties as I drink. It just gets better and better. Like yo I have the most badass intelligent real powerful ET God's in existence that are actually capable of doing anything. They can prevent law from locking me up. Bullets from killing me. Hell Thoth blew up a van so hard-core to send a message as I requested DaDa Thutmus did so my ex boss would pay my back the 1000 he stole from my favorite gambling account without harming him but as a warning that my God is real.and he will fuck you up yo so u best pay my money back asap. Not one hair singed. All dude was hook up a scan tool under dash abd Thoth is so powerful he ignited the diesel somehow with his anger I guess that dude barely made it out alive however he payed me back with interest after that. πMaet had to reduce Thoth's level of reign over free will sovereignty over earth for a lil bit bc he was so mad bc ppl keep disrespecting me who he cherishes as his perfect child she was scared that Thoth might begin casting plagues again to punish ppl
I been researching exactly why it's absolutely required when praying to Yeshua to be kneeling on both knees while consciously humbling yourself as a purely innocent child of Elohim. Yeshua is incapable of doing holy work to your soul when you simply bow your head. When you kneel on both knees you become disarmed from ego as you lose your sense of balance on your knees. Your sense of balance nearly makes you haughty or prideful/arrogant once you think deeply about this. So you become less of a blasphemy in the eyes of God who is the only perfect one who thinks they all that and a bag of chips in the eyes of Yeshua. I figured out one other detail that is scientifically proven as well. When your standing your dominant sexual energy center is constantly lit up on the map as part of your walk if you will. I noticed my dick ceased to be prevalent once I knelt on both knees. So that's another weapon your disarmed of which gets in Christ's way when you find your knees in reverant worship. Your dominant sexual organ being lit up as part of your active running processes totally prevents Yeshua from being able to pull dark angry negative energy from your soul through your heart chakra as well as since when standing your arrogantly proud as well as feeling prideful of your sexual organ so you can't even possibly pray with the same level of sincerity as you would on your knees once you stopped feeling like super man or super woman per se. I honestly wondered if I imagined Thoth explaining to me in solitary in jail that's it's evil to drink from cups when standing...lol Since I now understand how the dominant muscles of the thighs carry sense of power and authority when you stand to strut that ass aroundπ€£...This only is defanged when you kneel on both knees surrendering yourself as an innocent child humbly who is incapable of taking care of/handling themselves without their Heavenly Father's protection. They're actually are multiple Fathers of Heaven as well as many Goddesses and Angels there to be your family too. Stop thinking you are ever anything more than a child when seriously speaking to Elohim or Christ. Praying with your head bowed doesn't do anything to heal your soul in any way as your defenses are lit up when standing so your soul cannot even attempt to be real or receive true nurturing or healing in any way whatsoever dawg. Thoth said all God's deem drinking from cups while standing to be...like rude or embarrassing like picking your nose in public possibly bc drinking is intended to be a resting activity and once ya'll get on the same page with me regarding your relationship with Yeshua and Elohim where nothing can kill you although you under go difficulties to strengthen you then ya'll finally wake the fuck up at all the GD work we have to on earth regarding recycling, cleaning landfills, scrap metal, rethinking our love of cheap easy poisonous low quality food even being allowed to be created period at all to begin with bc what in the fuck are we in such a GD rush for such low quality results in like every GD thing we do on this planet. Wtf are rushing driving 80 GD miles 50 miles across the desert highway of dead animal skeletons for just eat sleep and shit after receiving a minor amount of money just to repeat the same bullshit over the very next week like wtf are we doing this is not living life. We need to do things that have higher purpose so we actually feel like we are worth a GD in life yo. Clean our planet for one bc she suffocating like hell red sprites are not a cool ass mysterious phenomenon your luckily to witness that's like watching a baby get in the head with a hammer that a women who doesn't know what love is aborted but was still breathing so the doctor beat it's skull in. Oh yeah that's an amazing phenomenon. No red sprites or red lightening occuring above thunderstorms is earth suffocating to death bc she is no longer capable of handling so many lost people burying trash in her instead of doing right