Nothing ever seems to get better. I have to be the one to handle myself but I literally can’t. I’m crying so bad (no I’m not. That’s a lie. But I certainly feel like I might.)
I deserve to die
I give nothing to the world
Nothing at all.
I’m talentless
I act on impulse
I am a genuine idiot
Horrible social skills
I don’t learn from my mistakes
I deserve to be brought out back and shot
They don’t acknowledge the fact I got raped multiple times
Not that I got groomed by someone 20 years older than me
Not that I had a rough past that i literally can’t go into
Nothing
I’m sick of it
I wish it was okay for me to not be ok. But it’s not
It never will be okay
I’m gonna get ghost banned for this. Probably. Idk. I’ve posted a lot in the past few minutes. Seconds, even.
I hate the phrase “it’s ok to not be okay” because it seems it’s alright for EVERYONE ELSE but the SECOND I express any negative emotions I’m terrible
Out of control even. Because I’m supposed to be chaotic and funny and unserious
Because I’m the friend everyone can come to when they need comfort
Because I don’t have any real problems
Nothing ever happens to me for me to feel bad
I wish I could be happy with what I have. But I never am. I’m never satisfied
The longest stretch of time I’ve been happy is 4 weeks.
I’ll never fully be happy I think. I think I’m falling out of love too because I can’t handle myself properly.