Hope Was Here

#DoBetterForAdoptees. People joke about being us and say to be grateful for our trauma. The LAW prevents us from knowing our own biology. Wouldn’t you be angry?

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

I’m figuring out a lot right now, including how difficult it is for me to communicate. Art makes it easier sometimes

#dobetterforadoptees #healingvibes #artfromtrauma #adoption #art #digitalart #xray #photomanipulation #abstractart #autismawareness

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

@narae_11 Yeah a lot better!! My meds and kidney crap (AND wrong glasses prescription 🤪cuz why not) broke my eyeballs for a while lol. Couldn’t read, video game, work, blah. Dark hole. But the light is back. Thank you ❤️ how about you? Are things going ok over there? Are the kitties good?

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

Adoptees and autistic people both apparently struggle a lot with individuation. Forming a sense of self distinct from others. It doesn’t make sense to people why I barely even know what MUSIC I like

#DoBetterForAdoptees #AdoptionReform #Adoption #Adoptionistrauma #AdopteeVoices

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

@narae_11 Bahaha well that clip isn’t 😂 they would like me to inform you that was the GOOD clip. Ahhh man I forgot how to read notes too. I’ve just been using tabs. Do they have those for sax? That’s SUCH a cool instrument. Heh I hope I don’t annoy my neighbors. No angry notes yet 😂

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

Music is officially my favorite #mentalhealthhack

I pick up and put down the guitar so much it’s embarrassing but get sick for a little while and there’s some motivation to practice 😂 it’s been fun though

…the cats don’t agree…

Bolero Blues

[Ryan Daigler - Exposing Narcissistic Abuse 🚩🚩 @Ryan_Daigler]

I do not give second chances anymore. When I catch someone trying to gaslight me or minimize my concerns, I take that as abusive manipulative behavior and that’s it. ✂️
They had their chance

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

@narae_11 Hiii nice to hear from you too!! Thank you!! Sorry I went a little dark

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

@narae_11 @ShesKindaALot

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

@DiaryofaSickGrl Before I found my GP, the kindest thing for me would have been just being believed also. It’s thanks to her that I can go to other doctors with a fiery refusal to be medically gaslit or ignored.

This is her TED talk. She is so freaking awesome

https://t.co/fRRWOXsn11

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

@DiaryofaSickGrl I’m actually collecting a few stories lately. All women doctors. My GP is the kindest lady in the universe. She offered to get groceries for me recently because I’ve been alone and so sick. Endless stories about her.

She gives me hugs every visit. She always really HEARS me

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

@DiaryofaSickGrl Posted in a support group about my medical crap. It got confusing and freaky and drawn out for months. A doctor in the group reached out to me, and literally gave me an hour of free incredible medical advice. And calmed me the heck down. JUST to be nice. We’re friends now

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

@DiaryofaSickGrl *or medical professionals of other kinds that are women

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

@DiaryofaSickGrl At the ER recently, was in my assigned bed near a lady with her family. Apparently she and I were both adopted. But I didn’t have anyone with me and was terrified. Trying not to cry. A nurse saw. I said I was ok but she basically hung out with me between literally running around

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

Talking to a prosecutor for child protection cases if anyone has questions. How have courts and caseworkers handled adoptees whose biological parents’ rights have been terminated? How often is therapy actually mandated? #AdopteeTwitter #AdopteeVoices

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

Feels like ever since I finally got my ADHD diagnosis, when I open up about how glad I am to finally get help there is often someone (who doesn’t have ADHD) popping up complaining about how over-diagnosed it is

wHaT abOuT tHe KiDS 🤪 BRO U DONT HAVE OR KNOW ANY

#ADHDAwareness

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

Special interest hyperfocus GO

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

I was resigned to the fact that I am poison to plants. Even succulents. EVERY one I’ve had, died. Or I gave it away first

Then, a few years ago I discovered aquatic plants😍IT’S JUST LAND PLANTS THAT HATE ME

Still all noob plants but they liveee 😂 I’ll never not be excited lol

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

@narae_11 @FeralHeather But I get not wanting to feel like a freaking guinea pig. I’d given up on them. Still freaked about it but first meds I’ve ever tried that worked for depression stuff 🙈

[Hope Was Here @AdoptedandAngry]

@narae_11 @FeralHeather I totally get that. I tried a bunch of them originally over a decade ago and it was awful. I refused to try any more for a long time. Not until this year actually 😅 and it wasn’t even my therapist that convinced me, it was the GeneSight test

[Feral Heather @FeralHeather]

I’m on new anti-depressants for suicidal ideation after YEARS of trying to cope without them, because a lot of horrible traumatic stuff happened recently.

Everyone I tell about this has said something to the effect of “anti-depressants are a crutch & bad for you, quit them.”