So traumatized by love that even if God molded a man right in my front today I’ll probably run away. My heart can’t take any more disappointment from men
i understand that i am in a season of growth and refining and transition and development but it honestly just feels too much like suffering and i want it to end. i am tired.
I don’t know but I think it’s time we know that these husbands do not provide, in a positive way, we’re learning that marriage is isn’t the traditional script society sold us. These households r standing firm coz of basadi. Maybe it’s a good idea 4 more women to tell their truth.
I once had a patient that I delivered who prior to delivery was bubbly, happy and excited to meet her baby. After delivery she cried, and cried, and cried, and cried. It broke me. For the few hours I watched her before I transferred her to postpartum, she wouldn’t stop crying about how hard that delivery was and how she had nothing left to give. She cried for hours, she didn’t want to see or hold her baby. She was so sad and 4hrs later wouldn’t stop crying. I had to order a psychiatric consult for her cos I knew she was gonna have a hard time at home. Checked on her the next day and she was still crying. Her husband was so loving and supportive by her side the whole time, yet she couldn’t stop crying. She was traumatized. I’ll never forget her. Sometimes the “regret” is instant, other times it’s postpartum and years after. Your feelings are very valid.