You are only human and mistakes will be made. Do not beat yourself up about it. Learn from it, do better, and keep moving forward. Do your best, let God handle the rest.
At the end of knowledge, there is understanding.
Before understanding ends, wisdom begins.
In the midst of wisdom, hope is found.
At the discovery of hope, God's promises exist.
With the promises of God, there is God's love, grace, and mercy to help you overcome every obstacle.
What is Heaven going to be like? You are going to be reunited with loved ones who know the Lord. You are going to be rewarded for your faith. You are going to be freed from pain, depression, misery, shame, and guilt. You are going to rejoice, worship, and party for eternity!
When do anything of value in life, naysayers will come your way. They might ridicule you, spread rumors, or even threaten you. But do not focus on the naysayers. Focus on God and His promises. The Lord is for you. You do not have to be afraid. People have their opinions. So what?
For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved. John 3:16-17
Those who leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything. God's hand will invade your ordinary with something extraordinary.