// hello. admin is starting on our initial stage of adulting so we’d be more sporadically here. it has been a good 2-3 years since we have been active and it all made good times for us.
as we are getting less active, feel free to break if you prefer an active mutual.
seungmin making a whole song about choosing skz over his childhood dream seungmin crying because he doesnt want to sing if its not with skz seungmin saying he doesnt believe in forevers but wants to believe in an eternity with the members
another part that broke me is chan saying, “I’ll do better” bc that’s exactly why seungmin kept these thoughts to himself; he didn’t want to trouble or put more pressure on chan to “do better”
seungmin making it clear he didn’t say these things to mean, “fix this abt yourself”
🐺feeling upset?
🐶no you are the one and only good hyung to me, idk, i really adore hyung *started sobbing* since in the past , either in recording studio or places like that, whenever we were clashed over little things , as much as i care about this person, it felt weird to me too, to express was very difficult, since you are the eldest that need to lead the team , i feel that its not easy to talk about those things , its like i thought about these things this much, and i dont want the leader and the eldest to know about these things
🐺me too, but its opposite, what im thankful of seungmin is that you say what you have to say? because of that for me, based on my personality , since there are times i didnt realise the mistakes i made, the action and way of speaking which i was not aware of, if theres someone who would pick up on this like “ah i made this big mistake” “ah i need to pay attention on this” thanks to you, i feel like you made me think about those things
😭😭😭😭
seungmin is like the child that the parents pay less attention to bcs they trust him that he'll do well no matter what on his own and didn't show it but he also wants to be cared for and babied. six years and i have only realized this dynamic between them. brb im going to cry
also chan… immediately going to his knees and saying hyung is sorry… wanting to make sure seungmin STILL doesn’t feel this way… saying he’ll do better… christopher please your instinct towards self flagellation is making me lose my fucking mind
@lettersfromchan I know this is too much to ask but is it possible for you to sub the whole episode? We really need a good translation because it sucks for us who don’t understand korean. Like if i will ball my eyes out then i need it accurate 😭😭😭
“i don’t want to avoid confrontations when it’s with you” is literally one of the best ways you can tell someone you trust them wholeheartedly that you know no matter what happens, your friendship is secure. you believe that no amount of argument could tarnish your appreciation
🐶 i could’ve just hate it but, that’s how much i have respect for you and the person i like. there’s a guarantee that we’ll be seeing each other forever, i didn’t want to avoid but i didn’t know what that feeling was
🐺 when we clashed, it wasn’t that recent or long ago, but is it okay nowadays?
🐶 ah it’s not that i feel uncomfortable with you or i hate you. that’s not the case at all. ah idk just… ig even with that i still like you.
🐺 i’ll work harder…
🐶 just do as you are now
🐺 even so.. i’ll be better
🐶 i’m not saying this so you would change, i’m just saying it and just expressing myself
🐺 but same goes for me, because i really adore and like you
🐶 idk how to explain this
🐺 sad?
🐶 you’re one of the only hyung i have, idk just you’re a really important person to me, just like.. in the past like in the recording studio, everytime we clash over something trivial, as much as i love this person, somehow it was hard for me express it. and since you’re the oldest who’s leading the team, ig it wasn’t easy for me to talk with you about those things. the thing i am worry and think about, i didn’t want our leader to know about those trivial things as well