I want people in my life that see my value, that see me as more than any short-coming and aid in my desire for continual mental / emotional / intellectual growth. Those people inspire me to improve (and I them in return), because they are gracious, which makes all the difference!
A God lifts you where you are, if you are willing to try...
A Demon tears you down, where-ever you are, and tries to point the finger of blame at you...
That is the operational definition!
I certainly wish that when I see something that inspires feelings of love in me that I *always* can feel that love somatically in my body, instead of feeling like that love is somehow not allowed in my body. I feel like somehow my love is taken and given to something else...
So, I showed love and charity towards, honest communication -> and what they said to me was this "Thank you for not being around so I can [do a thing]" which scans as: "You're presence is not appreciated, and antiprogressive to what I want"; saying in essence I'm worthless - ouch
What I keep being taught by example is this: That success is borne from entering a space and seeking to manipulate and dominate that space by actions or loudness. That is what I keep being taught...
I've learned that I very much dislike losing, or feeling like a loser due to an illegitimate contest; as I'm sure most people feel the same. Why do you suppose we feel so upset when we lose in a way that left a scar emotionally? Why can't we simply just say, "oh well"...
I've noticed something consistent in people that seek #power for themselves (or someone they support) - they use #labeling or #mudslinging out of context with scripted intent to #belittle and create constant #false#judgment on someone to create dislike - which creates disconnect
I understand... and it took alot to see. Narcissism is literally an anti-societal behavior, because all the investment is completely and totally for self without any care for fellow man. It is a type of mentality that breaks societies.
I think I just realized I don't like watching YouTube video's about medical symptoms, they scare me and I feel like they are sensationalized for ad revenue. When I see someone watching them I start shaking internally, like waiting for the other shoe to drop - it's unpleasant...
I have learned that there is disinformation shared as 'news' on the internet through supposed legitimate means that is absolutely not legitimate. I don't yet know how to fight back against that, but I will learn and I will make sure that all of the deceptions are revealed.
I had thought for a second that life had returned to being about love... then I was sharply reminded that love is a deception (or appearance of love) and life is about domination and control... Merry Christmas
I could act the part of understanding before, but I wasn't valiant in that knowledge I had because I didn't fully comprehend. I am, for the first time, starting to comprehend but I have to keep relearning the same thing to build that comprehension. Who else experiences this?
I'm only now starting to understand life lessons that I was taught (or implied) that I should understand when I was much younger. Even then I can understand but it doesn't stay with me, and I have to keep relearning at this point. How may other people feel this way?
Want to try #AlbionOnline, an MMO sandbox game? I've tried it, honestly there's parts that are interesting, really good game mechanics, even fun environment interactions. Here's a referral link: https://t.co/YHgZ0g4InI
I walked in to the kitchen and I smelt #rubber#cement or similar substance, and I looked around trying to find where the smell was emanating from but I couldn't locate the source. I looked everywhere but it was too strong to localize. Strange to have that smell in the kitchen?