@cashmadamee God still got your back dear,it's better to remember that loving father who left you with lovely memories..rather than having a father who is alive and constantly making you ask yourself,if you are truly his son.
When I see people complain about how annoying their dads are, I just sit still and listen and wish in my heart that I still had my dad with me. I'll take an annoying dad any day to no dad.