One thing I’ll never take for granted is how God has always been there with me, even during the times when I wasn’t praying or at my best. God is a faithful and loving Father and I am grateful everyday.
For most of my life, prayer has been a struggle.
And by struggle, I mean STRUGGLE.
How is that possible? I’m a missionary. I’ve been a Christian for decades!
Why is praying so hard?
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Finding time to pray has always been difficult. When I prayed in the morning, I was rushed. My prayers felt disingenuous.
When I planned to pray in the evenings, I was too tired. Scrolling Instagram or YouTube was easier.
When I sat down to pray, I was almost always distracted. Literally, within minutes my mind was thinking about what I had to get done that day or an unresolved issue from the day before.
I often felt like my prayers were repetitive—the same people, the same circumstances, the same words. I wondered if God was even listening.
Was He listening??? It didn’t feel like a conversation at all.
It felt like I was talking TO God, not WITH God.
Almost everything got in the way of my prayer time.
I needed to sleep in.
I needed to get to bed.
I needed to finish a project at work.
I needed to spend time with the kids.
I needed to spend time with my wife.
I needed to respond to emails.
I needed to take a call.
I needed to…
Ughhhhhh. EXCUSES.
At the end of the day, I simply didn’t want to pray. (That's embarrassing to write)
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There has to be more?
This isn’t the prayer life I read about in Psalms.
When King David prayed, he PRAYED.
Right?
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This is the prayer I eventually offered unto the Lord:
“Lord, I want you.
I want to talk with You.
I want to be close to You.
I want my prayer life to mean something.
I want an authentic prayer life.
I want a passionate prayer life.
I want a rich and transformative prayer life.
I love you.”
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And then, I began praying through the Scriptures.
And everything changed.
When I prayed before, it felt like I was praying for 10 or 15 minutes when, in reality, only 2-3 minutes had passed.
After I started praying the Bible, specifically the Psalms, I now get lost in prayer and can pray for 20-30 minutes without effort.
I’m growing.
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If you struggle with prayer, retweet this and comment with a 🙏🏽, and I'll DM you the document I wrote that explains exactly how I pray.
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After a lifetime of struggle and stagnant prayers, I finally feel like I'm praying 'with' the Lord.
Dear Lord,
Today, I pray that when I’m tempted to think that I’m falling behind; or could never accomplish what You put in my heart. Help me to stay encouraged. Because You know how to make up for lost time. I declare that my miracle is already underway. In Jesus name. Amen🙏🏾