_sinichiiloves

[. @Carlosgramosc]

Cuando la gente piensa que los estás ignorando pero la vida te tiene así:

[_sinichiiloves @AlatheaM_]

if sa tingin n’yo nanghihingi ako ng jowa just because i asked “kailan ’yung akin?” mali po. I'm just asking kung kailan ko mararanasan ’yung ganon ka busy sa mga kausap and such, ’yung hindi ako mabuburyong kasi wala akong magawa.

[_sinichiiloves @AlatheaM_]

ako lord, kailan kaya ’yung akin?

sawa na ako mag antay sa mga friends ko. sila maraming kausap, friends, crush, new friends, cm, and etc. ako—sila lang.

kapag wala sila, wala akong makausap.

[_sinichiiloves @AlatheaM_]

one of my coping mechanisms is doing house chores, pero kapag natapos ko na—babalik na naman sa ganon isipin ko kapag mag papahinga na.

another one is thirst trap, pero wala na spark ko d’yan, tinatamad na ako.

[_sinichiiloves @AlatheaM_]

i always try to engage in every activities or socialise with my friends, and school mates, but it doesn't make change.

what am i lacking?

[_sinichiiloves @AlatheaM_]

i feel so out of myself rn, drained af, can't get over shit, and so on.

can someone explain me what am i feeling rn, cuz i think i need to see a psychologist.

[_sinichiiloves @AlatheaM_]

i always convince myself that there's nothing to worry about, and this will sook fade away.

it's been years.