Xan-da '26g

.i cry when happy.i love fashion & i love art. i love my girlfriend.

[Xan-da '26g @AlexIzPanda96]

only 127 more days until my girlfriend comes back 🫡

[Xan-da '26g @AlexIzPanda96]

i cannot afford insurance on top of everything

[Xan-da '26g @AlexIzPanda96]

now that i think about it, i was like this last year, then i disappeared and got into shape, made new friends and eventually found my love.

[♪ Rara♪ @RaraSensei]

I swear people are waaaaaaay too invested in parasocial relationships.

[Xan-da '26g @AlexIzPanda96]

it really sucks, i don't even enjoy music i've noticed

[Xan-da '26g @AlexIzPanda96]

maan i want my gfs cookies that she baked

[kage @sukikage_]

it’s crazy how being depressed for years makes you a fucking idiot

[Xan-da '26g @AlexIzPanda96]

i'm struggling to sleep, ahhh this is so bad

[Xan-da '26g @AlexIzPanda96]

i want to do right, i want to moveout also when i find the right place for me

[ぱるたそ @goqd0rm]

ADHDやASDの人を「顔が幼い」「社会経験が少ない」で片づけるの、かなり雑なんよな。足りないのは経験じゃなくて、安心して表情を出せた経験の方だと思う。

発達特性がある人は、むしろ対人関係で傷つく経験をかなり早くから積まされやすい。普通にしていたつもりなのに笑われる。質問しただけで面倒くさがられる。表情、声量、距離感、反応のズレを何度も指摘される。そうなると、自然な顔を出す前に「今これで変じゃないか」を監視するようになる。

その結果、顔つきが幼いというより、表情を出すこと自体が危険になっている人がいる。人と関わってこなかったからではなく、人と関わるたびに自分を削られてきたから固まる。そこを見ずに「幼い」「擦れてない」と言うのは、傷ついた後の防御反応まで本人の未熟さにされる感じがして、普通にきつい。

[yui @yuibunn7]

people with less than 8 followers tweeting:

[Xan-da '26g @AlexIzPanda96]

i shouldn't be blaming myself, i'm still hurt by what she said, after a long week of work, i didn't want to hear that

[Xan-da '26g @AlexIzPanda96]

i don't feel safe anymore, i'm so scared of breaking down

[セナ@ADHDを才能に変える思考法 @otonashikotoba]

正直に言います。ADHDは「否定され続ける」と才能が消えるんです。本来持ってる発想力、行動力、過集中。全部、自信がなくなると発揮できなくなる。否定が才能を殺す。これが一番もったいないんですよ。今すぐ否定してくる環境から離れてみてください。認めてくれる場所に行けば、才能が復活します。

[Xan-da '26g @AlexIzPanda96]

maybe i'm burned out

[々 @ayospawned]

you don't realize how much being left out has effected you until you realize you're scared to participate in anything without someone inviting you to join in

[femiiiiii. @femiiiszn]

unlearn shame. all forms of shame: unemployment, illness, vulnerability, longing, desire, errors, failures. you do not need to feel ashamed of what you are experiencing or living. freedom and shame cannot coexist.

[Fav ⛧ @Favwontmiss]

Autistic person here, people think I’m antisocial but I’m not. Solitude is how I recover from masking, constant noise, and being overstimulated. If I don’t get enough time alone, I don’t just get tired I completely shut down.

[ឆេតិន Chayton @dlthug_]

One of the darker and underdiscussed parts of having autism is how it can take years, because of delayed social processing, to fully grasp the extent to which people mocked you to your face, how often you were cast aside for being yourself, and seen as barely human, all while you

[𝓓𝓮𝓵 @delonperc]

Any other autistics feel like they are the least important person in the room/convo/gc? Like all the time.

[Lammy @Lammyisback]

One autistic superpower is unintentionally charming others; people think you’re dropping hints or flirting, when in reality, you’re just being literal. For example: I might stare at someone’s mouth not because I want to kiss them, but because I’m lip-reading to make sure I’m hearing correctly. Or when I say, "What beautiful hair" or "Your hands are beautiful" I’m not flirting; I’m just saying exactly what I think.
Believe me, I don’t know how to flirt. If I actually try to flirt, it never works