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For so long I wished I had a father in my life, someone to be a strong leader and role model. Someone to love me and care, be there for me when nobody else was. My dad died when I was 4 months old and all 3 step fathers I had after that eventually left too. My Papa was one of the only father figures in my life, he was my best friend and someone that always meant so much to me, even when we didn’t always see eye to eye, and when he finally passed from cancer in 2023, it broke me.
I gave up on hoping a father figure would come into my life that would stay forever and love me unconditionally. Little did I know that Jesus Christ was my father all along, always there for me, all I had to do was call His name and He would be there.
For most of my life I didn’t want to be associated with Christianity. I associated a lot of my own childhood trauma with God and Christianity as a whole. I was emotionally abused by a “devout Christian” as a child, and it made me have a lot of bitterness towards God. I remember being screamed at that the devil was inside of me and having him “rebuked” out of me, when I was just a child… Told I was ugly, fat, had no friends, all by someone who was supposed to care for me. How could someone who loves Jesus so much be so cruel towards me? These things really stuck with me for a long time.
But my papa was a devout Christian and the kindest man you would ever meet, never ever shouted and was just unbelievably peaceful. He was the definition of what it meant to be Christlike. But I never understood growing up how he could believe in something he couldn’t see. It was so confusing to me, I would try to believe when I was younger, but I honestly just felt like I couldn���t… which eventually led me to think the whole idea was stupid and wrong out of anger and frustration. How come everyone else felt this feeling of love and comfort by God, and I wasn’t able to for some reason? I really wanted to, but truly believed I would never be able to. So I gave up for a long time… I even came out to my family as an atheist.
These last couple years have been some of the hardest ones I have lived in many ways, but maybe that was what I needed to find God. I needed to hit the bottom to find a way out.
Either way, trying to strengthen my relationship with God has been one of the best things to happen to me in a long time. He is making me a better person, He motivates me to do good and be content. I genuinely feel so much joy when I am reading my bible and learning more about the history of the bible (because truthfully I still have much to learn). To know that He died for me, such a brutal death… and He was such a good, perfect person… it breaks my heart but fills me with joy. I am so BLESSED. And I know I had said once that I may not speak about it much, but the truth is the more I grow in my faith the more I feel led to share. It is a huge part of who I am and who I want to grow to be. But I am still very much a work in progress, I am praying daily for discernment in my spirit, to know better right from wrong. So please don’t look to me as some perfect example, because I am not one. I am still a baby in my journey with Christ but I am so excited and on fire for him. I have never felt so much emotion, passion, and love as I have felt recently, and I know it is all because of Him.
Today at church our sermon spoke about truly choosing to follow Jesus Christ. The pastor spoke about how we can choose to truly follow and please Jesus or follow and please the world, but we cannot choose both. We should not be afraid to proclaim our faith, and be unapologetic witnesses. I truly wish to follow Jesus Christ and be who He wants me to be, not who the world wants me to be.
I still have days where I feel like I am a fraud, that maybe I don’t truly believe, but I think that is the devil and I won’t listen to him and let him have what he wants. I just want to be happy! And God makes me so happy! Hosanna in the highest! 🤍
BREAKING: President Trump responds to China’s retaliatory actions and raises tariffs to China to 125%. There is also a pause on other countries.
The Dow Jones and stock market respond at 1:30 PM Eastern time by shooting upwards over 2000 points