It's been a gradual awakening: I've been Nath Cordoba experiencing myself in the third-person through Alex's first-person perspective... and now I'm learning how to express as myself through Alex as my avatar.
The Kurgan just admitted defeat. By being an aggressive rapist with no self-control he's doomed himself to eternal damnation if he ever wins and accepts The Prize. He'd rather accept defeat and become part of the life force of his victorious opponent through The Quickening.
Been hearing stories about my family and my sister's husband's family holding an intervention for my sister. In this narrative she was the one attacking me as Earl and the authorities are telling her it's an illegal criminal act of assault.
What do I think? I think that's a load of shit. I think somehow lasagnyaaa is the Nath Cordoba I have a connection with, that she'd fight to the death for what's right, and that she has nothing to do with Earl and would fight him if he bothered her.
They sez they's gonna do the same thing to Nat what they did to Alex twice: temporary detention in a mental health facility, only unlike Alex Nat ain't gonna persevere but rather break, turn into a spineless baby what would do any depravity and reveal her true identity as Earl
Next I heard a familiar story from a fresh angle: somehow lasagnyaaa's been the one responsible for Earl but now the allied forces been closing in on her case cuz she been making problems for not only Alex but all Creation too