Allanton Fazil

Full_time fearless fashion rebel,with the attitude of a liberal misfit. Decoding dreams and exercising greatness#TeamBlessed

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

And yes adulting is a careless drunk aunt at a family gathering, but it’s also the best bloody years of our lives. Perhaps the process might obliterate our hearts, but the promise remains unchanged. God remains faithful in every era. He is omnipotent!

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

I sit at the foot of depression every single day. I wrestle my anxiety and trauma with such poise and grace.
My greatest fear is that my tenacity and resilience will eventually expire and my life will be nothing more than a statistic!

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

Very soon I’ll have to succumb to my traumatic injuries and loose every fragment of my sanity. At this point my resilience has been stretched beyond human capacity!

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

Today was a dense day. I had to revisit parts of myself I buried months ago. I had to use my tools, I had to breath! I can never revisit that dark, vile land mine again. I can never be that ungovernable again!

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

An unhealed, vile and disrespectful individual invited me to HELL the other day. I politely DECLINED!
My psychological safety is my core priority. I will not unravel and impede my spiritual growth. I VALUE MY HEALING FAR TOO MUCH BELOVED!

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

Just received a copy of my payslip. Sadly I won’t make it back to work tomorrow morning. It is in my best interest to stay home and focus on my onlyFans account. It just isn’t worth it beloved!!

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

My deep rooted childhood traumas and mental health issues, were triggered by the passing of my mom. I was unable to grief her in totality as grief was a foreign concept to me. I had run for over 3 decades without solace. I had no capacity to accommodate healing!

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

VIVIENDO LA VIDA 📍.

As @otlimooketsi would say…. “ Soft girl era activated!” 👋
We coming for everything. EVERYTHING 👏🏼 @ The Zone @ Rosebank https://t.co/nTYMfTjHPR

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

Once these wires are out ….. you’ll will have to compensate me financially for a smile. 👏🏼
We ain’t here to play baba!!📍 @ Kyalami On Main Shopping Centre https://t.co/XI5Wy4VJdJ

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

2020 I lost my mother.
2021 I evaded the grief by becoming EVERYONES “safe space”
2022 I lost myself in depression. I suffered in silence. Too scared to show the fragments of my soul. I laughed contagiously and seemed “ohk”.
2023 I choose HEALING AND MYSELF!

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

I LOST MYSELF IN THE RAGE.
Peace and solitude could not gain access to me. I couldn’t find healing from the parts grief had so violently stolen. I’m so sorry.
I LOST MYSELF IN THE RAGE!

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

Just posted a photo @ Tres Jolie Wedding and Function Venue https://t.co/ne6CFp6fF1

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

I can’t be part of a friendship where I’m fighting to be relevant, respected and revered. You can miss me with that BS. FOKOF!

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

LIGHTS 🔦
CAMERA 🎥
ALLANTON ❤️
Yesterday I served all kinds of magic. I brought a whole disco to the party actually 🪩
Also @the_only_shaw knows the history behind this here jacket. 🫣 @ Sandton, Gauteng https://t.co/mbWLOSNhAE

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

So your fave “aunticle” is out to negotiate his own lobola. 🙄
You’ll are delayed 😢
Been hot since the 90’s, still no uncles 💁🏻‍♂️ @ Tembisa, Gauteng https://t.co/FnGYz3deYU

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

Fast forward to today. I have returned two items to be credited to my account and only one seems to have reached their credit and assessment facility. What happened to the other item. Online store platform or trauma trigger? @TAKEALOT

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

So I’m enraged @TAKEALOT !! I got defrauded out of an order last year. Been trying to recover two items for the last 6 months. The management team basically said “screw you” and left me hanging, knowing that I paid for items that were never delivered 😪

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

Over the next few days, we will vehemently chair conversations about suicide and mental health. We will find new interest next week however. What scares me most, is that fact that this is my reality on a daily bases. IT COULD HAVE BEEN ME!

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

2022: “Unlearn toxic behaviour!”

[Jackée Harry @JackeeHarry]

Pro tip: Stop attending every argument you're invited to.

[Allanton Fazil @Allantonistic]

Just posted a photo @ Strydenburg, Northern Cape, South Africa https://t.co/iQTV4nRR6X