Gender dysphoria is such a terrifying thing that after a horrible evening, I had a panic attack in my sleep because I was a man there too, and then I cried in bed for another half hour and couldn't fall back asleep. Take care of yourself.
@Sakari095 I weighed 135 kilograms and lost 45 kilograms in less than a year. All I did was eat a large homemade shawarma made from low-calorie products once a day and i walk 2 kilometres before sleep. Don't starve, you'll just break down. Never give up!